#193... Can ya dig it?!

Attention Kittens! Kittens Everywhere!

I am so close to posting my 200th blab of nonsense(read:perfection), you can almost smell the cupcakes of celebration about to burn!! Can't you?! HA just kidding, I would NEVER burn a cupcake. Cruelty upon all levels.

As I was browsing my Google Reader(which was quite dusty) that I haven't been very loyal to, I curious'ed myself into clicking a picture one of my favorite bloggers had posted of a living room with globes as decor... Oh, what's that? You'd like to see?

[Here you go, sweet child]

How FUN, RIGHT? I'll be sad if you hate them. 

I'm NOT a huge fan of the couch or pillows(or the rug =/), just the tastefully organized shelves of color-coordinated-delight and the GLORY GLOBES of  all variety... 

The wall paint is nice too. Anyway...

My POINT IS as follows: Today I realized something very important.

A few weeks ago, I was in a vintage store and a Bother(name is irrelevant) 

questioned my love for globes, in a devaluing-way to my opinion, 

and at the moment I didn't have a specific response of WHY. 

Well of course, I am not one to change my mind for the 

cause of "Peer Pressure" (bah! what a filthy phrase), so I continued to love globes.

Upon seeing this picture, it sparked my memory of this conversation 

and I re-visited what I should-have-could-have said.

Happily, in my brainthoughts, I replied: 

"It's my home! I like to hold it and look at it

and I LIKE TO KNOW WHERE I AM."

All of a sudden, my brain was giddy and it made perfect sense. 

I like to know where I am, 

that's why I get discontent when I can sense that I'm not wanted 

and unhappy and mentally exhausted when I am not "home" with the situation. 

You know that warm, home-feeling, when things are easy and make-sense?

No matter where you are. Even if you're away from your element, 

having someone or someTHING that makes sense 

on-your-mind is comfort enough for the little-while-that-you're-away.

Globes aren't necessarily "home," in such a deep meaning, but they sure are cute. 

I think old ones are neat to decorate with, 

plus they're slightly educational and interesting as they've changed over the years, 

and come in all sorts of fun colors! 

Here's some wins; pass them out, there's enough to go around.

 I just embraced a little more of myself today :] 

So kiss off, schmucks who question my globe-love! 

 *Flexes arms and growl face*

grrr! >:D 

(you have to imagine-in the scrunch over my nose!)

Sorry it's been so long, I've been busy managing life, 

but I'm not abandoning all my kittenfaces. Miss you!

Please take care :) 

xox, Bex.

Tis Any Day You Need it to be

A little scarring here and there
Add some frown lines.
I'm not happy in this moment
This movement I've allowed.
I keep doing this, circle of
trusting the wrong crowd.


I keep saying, it'll be different
next time, keep playing it real cool.
"I'm not gonna get head over heels,"
each time is the new rule.


When you talk to me, I count the time that slips away.
I always have less and less of you... when will
I hear an endless tick-tock play..?


There my sadness sits, just perched upon the ledge.
When poked and nudged and pushed around,
I stand proud and strong as a level-cut block of steel...
When edged close enough for the fall,
I plunge fast, try pulling up One ton of sinking keel.


I can barely lift my own strength anymore,
each descent takes me deeper.
I am tired, so tired of doing this on my own.