4:46 AM & yes. The light breaking through my window, & beating on my eyelids was rude.
Way too early, for that mess. I reach up towards the small bookshelf with my eyes closed & right hand, trying to shuffle lightly to find my phone, without knocking anything off the surface. Unsuccessful.
It was where I left it- on the charger under my pillow. Ahh, there you are.
Time: 4:47 AM & I can't help but unconsciously think to myself how much I LOATHE & could hurt something, for waking up before my alarm goes off. And if it were Saturday, the one that was 2 days ago... I would have seen your name there, on my phone. But its Monday, and I hate Mondays now.
11:18 AM & I'm fairly busy at work. My cell rings & I panic. It never rings at work, so my reflex is to grab & walk. I stand up, "This is ________." What's that? I'm outside now. You got my application? And you want me to re-apply? CAN DO. As I hang up, I'm so nervous. What if they actually like me? This travel agency is in another town- that means commuting. I talk and talk about wanting to work there, but I'm also afraid I have less confidence in myself, than is normal. What in the world is wrong with me?
This absurdity- how I am acting- is over the top and needs to end. How do I un-shake myself from being such a silly, FRET?
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