thewaywelaugh

Catchin' Up! Part I.

2012-01-19T22:50:00.000-08:00

My life has begun, guys(sarcasm!).

I do feel that I have opened a new chapter though. Lots of new experiences, lots of new feelings, more mature thoughts & decisions... don't tell my mom but... I kinda like it ;]

I have SO much to show & tell... and I know this is sort of a blogger's no-no, to give away so much at one time. But you guys totally deserve it, you've been patient(either that or you just forgot about little ol' me! =O) STILL I'll have to split this post into 2, maybe 3 different parts... there's just so much.

I'm about to expose your eyes to many spectacular images, you won't need to do anymore web browsing today. Deal?

Enjoy, darling doves.

Firstly. I got a haircut. Yes, I even went so far as to get my hair slightly COLORED. *gasp*

Here are the stages. Anyone heard of Successful Seattle Salon-Owner Lisa Vann of Milagros? Or Bruno Elorrioroz?? You should! He's the top colorist in the WORLD as of this moment. Aveda's Master Technical Director.Yup, ya heard. He was standing in my breathing space. He delicately picked up my hair and said in his beautiful French accent *soft, but intentional gasp* "She has such beautiful natural COLOUR!" And then he formulated this happy "After" face! In order of occurrence:

Here's the fill-in story: (Can I get a "Hallelujah-you're-still-a-redhead!?") School has restarted(I had a 2 week break; too long), and I'm back to the commute-school-commute-shower-sleep-commute cycle.

I'll start as far back as I can remember... since we last talked....
The construction company I work for, has moved! That was... tiring. But hey! My temporary business cards for school, came in! THAT. IS. EXCITING.

Now I have to figure out how to get rid of 250 business cards in the next 2 months...

Kid :)
This last month has truly brought me some very strong, beautiful memories that I will cherish for as long as I live. For one thing, I got one of my best friends back. His struggle to be the best of himself has been a treacherous, threatening, & faith-strengthening experience... for both him & myself. So I want him to know how much he means to me & all our friends here, & that him being out-of-state, won't keep him from being in our thoughts & prayers of support everyday. I've never been prouder of you, Besty. You now have the entire world at your disposal. Make it worth your while :)

In addition to that, I helped my Photographer Friend move into a new house one weekend. We are monsters that rolled a PIANO out of a moving truck to her local Goodwill. Then we rescued a wandering puppy for the night & returned him to his rightful owners the next morning. Isn't he just melt-worthy?

Moving on for all you cat-people, no need to retreat to a different site :P

I was given a surprise gift. THE best surprise gift(I'm not a huge fan of surprises, shhh), need I repeat THE BEST surprise gift ever. Dudeson, these just showed up at my house! I can't rave enough. They're absolutely perfect. And they're ME. *gah!* Thank YOU! YOU!

A group of my friends were going up to Crystal Mountain for snowboarding, & altho I didn't have room in my budget for the whole affair(student still! :)), I at least went up to babysit(ha! jk guys), and perhaps ride the Gondola after the winds subsided. Wow it was a beautiful sight at the top. Here's a peek at my way up:

I've just decided that it's time to go to bed. Yes, it's 10:25pm and I have school en la manana IF ALL GOES AS PLANNED. I have TONS of Seattle adventures to share with you, but I'll save them for the next UPDATE. I promise you, the next update will happen sometime next week. Hopefully before the next 7 days have flashed before my mind's eye.

You guys have been great, really. You're my favorite crowd ;) Haha I'll exit on that note.

<3, bex

P.S. If you're experiencing any kind of snow/ice/sleet days, like I am.... DRIVE SLOW. Or better yet- bundle up and WALK somewhere :) It's fun, trust me. Safety first!!!

My defense

2011-12-27T23:54:00.001-08:00

I am reduced to a weep by the tender compassions of my creator.

Overwhelming love & detailed
consideration, for me?
I am not worthy!

Flip that switch, up goes a fast, impenetrable & confident wall,
to those who wish they knew me.
But you...
You let me ramble, you know
My strength is being strong for those weak.
You have the right words to soothe what aches.

But even then, my creator, my God..
He gently takes my own hand to dismantle the wall.
The wall to every vulnerable nerve in my body, my emotion;
Every sense, every touch.

There is no guard here except you, Jehovah.

The World Isnt Speechless Always

2011-12-20T22:36:00.001-08:00

Put a painful space between us
Lay it down, smooth it out.
It's a world of untouched matter
What lies here between, you and I.
And what do you hear when I speak?
And do you smile to hear my name?
I trust my soul your kiss to keep,
And never depart; never to trade.

Un-arranged and ill-tempered I stay
Stay here and fix my daily flaw,
Singing notes up the heights of my wall
Climbing season won't be later than the fall.
Maybe by then my fortress will be ivied
And you will bear up, no fight be.

Maybe love will grab you by the throat,
Halfway down the road.
Maybe it will plead with you by your shirt-collar: "Will you leave what completes you, behind?? Will you race off before your heart chases you to rewind?? Your star left unpolished won't shine!!"

Spine attached to feet, if I'm one, you're another.
Over and over we connect all the parts, to each other.
No use in time's ticking, I must have you admit.

Won't you regret seeing the world?
Won't you miss it's green, it's rain tears in your hair? Down your chin?
Do you still hear it singing when the sun warms your face?
Will moss grow over your steps before you retrace?

Don't you know it shines the brightest when YOU water it?
When you sit down & gaze upon the hills? The forests' silence is in awe when you visit.

Be dry, riverbed. Save your power for the sowing season.
There's a wind I feel, to bring drought & ice...
Rest the tears of your perfect green eyes,
It's the sea tide's turn to cry.

Uncoordinated Times

2011-12-19T15:21:00.001-08:00

Wishing
For negligence to escape me
For easy things to make sense...
For you here to console me.

When I am weak then I am strong?

6:00 am aqua

2011-12-08T07:03:00.001-08:00

Music slowly chimes in
We float past the waters edge,
With house lights reflecting in the serenity
Even trees touch it.
But Earth's breath couldn't disturb it
I see two of everything- which is real?

Random poetism-ism-s :)

2011-11-13T20:56:00.000-08:00

Comfort eyes and wide bow lips
& a voice that could carry a hundred ships.
Dashing smooth and humble pie
No crows feet, or wrinkled lies

As honest as I feel I am
You are the same to me
Nothing says otherwise
Even the whispering trees.

Honey the clouds aren't swung enough
To make me believe a lie.
I'd see one if you'd tell it,
but you have no reason why.
We've come to see the intelligence it takes to tango just two,
and I'm practicing in the dark where all their torches can't shine thru ..
But with 3 the road is simpler, unbreakable at best-
and there's no need to grow tired from it, we won't need much time to rest.
You pick me up with the switch of a tongue, I heard what you didn't even say...
You flip my frown, when I'm feeling down, and you still will when I'm gray.

Big bangs! Seattle-walkin'!

Avoiding conversation with passers-by, by keeping the headphones in. lol

Goodnight ladies & gentlemen.

<3, bex.

eight, twenty two, eleven

2011-11-06T21:18:00.000-08:00

Are there days I skipped or didn't see?
I'm missing a vital piece of me

I turned this house over & never saw
that heirloom, that color, or any dropped flaw...

Maybe it's at the top of those stairs
or hiding in with the silverware...

I know it's around, you are still in my mind.
It's a really helpful thing you showed me one time.

But, you're far away.. can't help me look now
I'm jogging my streets & talking out loud.

Retelling the same story, where are you to stop me?
What happened to the fresh ink, the endless words I copy?

My writing's plugged up & I'm yawning again...
vowels pushing around blocks, to the consonant's end.
They won't quit, they just ramble & ring in my ears.
Who knows how many wasted lines before the sentence clears...

[ I'm still here.... floating around. Don't forget me! x)
Be safe! xoxo, Bex]

today is still TECHNICALLY Friday

2011-10-15T01:00:00.000-07:00

i miss you
and you know it.
your walk
and your grin,
the way you smile
makes me spin.
the way I miss
you, makes me slow...
I walk head down,
turn around...
I already know..

i miss your stare
and how you ask
about every turn,
inside my past...
i miss your weak smile
when you know
you could take a step
when you know
no single regret...
but you don't.

i miss the way
you laugh at me,
glancing up,
to take a peek.
the way you know
what makes me smile
the way you know
I've missed you for a while...

you miss me?
my eyes?
the way my hair
falls to the side?
do you miss
the speechless way
I send you a note?
i miss the day
I read what you wrote.

and when you came to see me
and when you hugged me tight,
I realized the days before
had never been right.
it made me miss your voice &
your fearless, complete words,
it makes me still miss your
whisper & perfect verbs.

its hard, I learn...
to let the present pass,
to not watch the clock,
or ....finish this.

What I've been up to(aka accidentally ignoring you)

2011-10-03T22:28:00.001-07:00

So I'll sum up, cause that's what I do ... First I got some food, with a handsome face, then opened a fortune cookie. I don't believe they're magic or anything, it was just cutesy :P

Then I made some cupcakes- and with the force that is all my own wonderment, I balanced the spoon on the edge of the bowl. *jazz hands*

Nextly, I ate the cupcake. Yeah, those are chocolate chips in the bottom ;)

Sidenote- these pictures may be out of order.. That's what I get for bloggin' in bed with an app.

Then! THENNN...my coworker acquired a beautiful new mouse for me, from a far away land named "Tar-jay," or maybe Target... Something fancy.

And you'll never guess what happened after that... I was GIVEN a delightful raspberry cobbler thing... It was so impeccably mind-altering, that I can't even recall the title.

So you see the water picture somewhere down there? That's where I've been spending 12-13 hours a day on the Seattle scene. Attending school! The school I've always dreamed of :) but the sad part is that now I have less time for you my kitten-faces, my doves. Oh how I miss our witty banter. Our long discussions about shopping & random people that we watch. Don't lie, you people-watch & you know it.

One more picture description! I promise. See me with the name tag? That was an exciting evening. I was riding the bus(gasp! I know!), to the University with my adopted brother. We walked the gorgeous campus that is lined with walkways just BUILT for autumn strolls at 6pm, as the sun is lowering it's beams across the paved paths. And there's lamp posts for squirrels to sit on as you crunch by, not intending on being so noisy, but there IS after all, only ONE fall season per year. And you're wearing fuzzy scarves! Don't forget peacoats & scarves & boots, & oh my! How studly some guys look in scarves!

I won't forget you. Don't forget me! Keep peeking back- cause before you know it... I'll be an esthetician! And I'll have half a day PER DAY to myself again- to write to YOU... my dearest muffinhead.

*waves handkerchief*
We will see each other soon, don't fret!! I've got lots of poems built up for occasions like this!!

Have a great week lovelies!
Xoxo, Bex.

Weird :)

2011-09-25T02:02:00.001-07:00

Where is that escape
The one I have known
So well, the one who never mistook
My firmness for stone.
Tangled is all, just simple grey
& writhing for freedom, sorrow
Is not here this year, or even just for today.

But anticipation, of a thing I know-
A feeling I have with no doubt...
Like steam searching for cracks of the hinges it can't see in the dark.

I have prayed to flourish, and
Seeing what I've come to be before you, gives me fever to share what else I've got.
You've breached a shore you didn't know existed, now you got me feeling on top.

I have never wanted to be masked since I met you. I will never descend again.

Can I ever repay you?

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Friiiiiiiday. Whew, excuse my yawn.

2011-09-16T16:52:00.000-07:00

Hey all!

I'm hoping to create MANY memorable.. well, memories this weekend :) Are you? You better be, it's one of those "last chance" weekends. But-why(read in British tone)? School starts for MOST of you next week- and mine starts the week after. :]

Hence! Forth! Henceforth! You & I will be busy.

UNTIL THEN, enjoy it. I mean that! You may read that line(or not read it) like you're reading this one and think to yourself "onward, blah blah blahhh, she's trying to look optimistic, blahh blahh.."

SERIOUSLY. I'm telling you, now. Enjoy your weekend.

Soak up each moment. Even if it's raining. Soak that up too.

Cause if you have any weekend like Seattle has, it might be raining ;]

And that's a fact.

On a more inspiring note, once upon a time. That's all. [..heh heh i keed i keed..]

This one time upon an evening, I was being super grateful for my bestie's

friendship & the time he's unselfishly given me.

Not only has "Kid" -as you have previously known him- helped me compromise with frustrating situations by asking obvious questions(that I NEVER would have thought to ask myself...),but he's actually SAVED my butt from being literally stranded-alone-on-the-side-of-the-road.

We've had sad times, funny times, and brutally-honest-self-examination sessions.

So I beg you readers, to shout at this guy today!

He is an important slice of my life, I need him to know that the rest of the world is rooting for him too :)

This world has some terrible challenges in it that make your 'windshield of life' hard to see thru. And when you squint to see who's there to help, you can replace that stress-brow with a smile!

Here's to you, bestie! Don't forget....

xD And don't forget this either!!

And that's that.

No arguing! I mean... uh wrong response :)

Have a splendid two-day-break-from-the-grind, and stay classy!!!

^_^

<3, bex.

Tis Any Day You Need it to be

2011-09-13T13:31:00.000-07:00

A little scarring here and there
Add some frown lines.
I'm not happy in this moment
This movement I've allowed.
I keep doing this, circle of
trusting the wrong crowd.

I keep saying, it'll be different
next time, keep playing it real cool.
"I'm not gonna get head over heels,"
each time is the new rule.

When you talk to me, I count the time that slips away.
I always have less and less of you... when will
I hear an endless tick-tock play..?

There my sadness sits, just perched upon the ledge.
When poked and nudged and pushed around,
I stand proud and strong as a level-cut block of steel...
When edged close enough for the fall,
I plunge fast, try pulling up One ton of sinking keel.

I can barely lift my own strength anymore,
each descent takes me deeper.
I am tired, so tired of doing this on my own.

me too!

2011-09-12T13:12:00.000-07:00

Umm, just ran across this a minute ago, and I HAD to share. Cause it's like, she read my 15 year old mind...

Thanks for reading my mind, lady!
:)

Have a good week, people.
xoxo, bex.

It's About Time... :)

2011-08-23T01:18:00.000-07:00

Whew! What a break I took. Sorry, that was unexpected. Not that you were all hanging on my shoestrings for the last 2 weeks... waiting for my post, right...? ...Right?(this is the part where you tell me I'm wrong)

Thanks for being so patient :) I am glad you came back, either way! ENJOY :}
Please.

I wanna know what it is you write in your home,
when your thoughts take you away, far off to your zone

I wanna see your eyes and the gears behind, turn
I will count them close and fix your every concern.

I imagine you bowed in a thoughtful pose,
in a chair, at a desk, with a window that's closed...
To block out any noise that could steal a great hook,
& you'd tap your pen on the nearest fat book.

Left hand will search your face for a time,
then Right moves fast to catch that witty rhyme.

For a few minutes I think, your pen doesn't stop,
your expressions fly side to side, from the bottom & top.

But to witness my vision on the same solid ground...
Your elation, your peace, to hear every awakened sound,
might take my writing to a whole new height,
it'd be an esteeming thing, to watch you mid-flight.

When your colors align and your eyes get that fire,
your mind's sparks gather every token they can acquire.
There's no end to the way you find higher roads to take,
Your ideas are refreshing, so old thinking you break.

With this stage of renewal, new levels bring new paths,
I am strengthened and blessed by this friendship to have.

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2011-08-14T20:28:00.000-07:00

While you cursed in torment, knee's up to your chest
you asked just for a breath & then pleaded for rest..
what else could I do, besides hold up your head
in patience just cradle, & feel the hope spread.

Your heart tried to give up on you so I said 'take a deep breath,
take another one - hold it - let go, now my friend.'

And your inhale was as strong as the day you were born,
you still hurt but you made it, a bit feathered and torn.
Still, thru day 1, and a full twenty four hours
you carried your vice, & still clutching your power...

The grey hours to follow, you may not remember
but to me, your life in that moment, I held most tender...
your memories, your love, the best things that make you
are invaluable, cherished to not just a few...

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stories...

2011-08-11T14:40:00.000-07:00

Let's flashback to high school... ahh ok now & let's reminisce over 2 minute crushes... :) Don't you miss them? ...No? Me neither :]

Here's to the sentiment, though, and the THANKFULNESS that I don't struggle with this anymore...

10-19-2004

When I tell a story...

your stare is constant,

never faultering, to keep my eyes

very alive

I feel your aura

breathing into mine

will you finish

what you've begun

or let it hang empty,

like my hands?

_________________________

everybody's got problems

2011-08-05T17:12:00.000-07:00

I wanna fix your problems
when I've got some too,
Let's work on yours right now
so mine seem far and few...

I keep turning up the volume
Let's hear that music on full blast;
As loud as my ears can stand,
okay, now what were you gonna ask?

Is that selfish? I don't want you to hurt, ever.
Is it still right if I have 2 good reasons?
Or do they really make a wrong?
Does this mean your bond wasn't strong?

Anyway it's hard missing you
"and in that moment I realized you were perfect"
is harder to swallow,
when it's not a dream, talking about you.

Whew! Corny. But I'm lovin' it. Go away McDonalds.

2011-08-03T00:29:00.000-07:00

oh for the record, you are the sun in my sky
you're the grain in my rye, the day to my night...

missing you is something I could never get used to
'cause every day is another day I choose you.

so don't every go away
don't tell me you can't stay
I'm right here with you, you're right here with me
and that's as far away as we need to be...

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Welcome!

2011-07-26T21:34:00.000-07:00

Well HI :] Hey, there's a newcomer in the crowd- everyone say "HI!"

Okay, back to business....You know, as well as I do.. that summer is a busy, busy time. I am not about to spend all my waking S.P.A.R.E.(queue "quote" fingers) time staring at the computer(my job requires this also)... altho I wish I had the attention span for it! :)

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaatttt?? You say...?

WHY YES, I DO have a life :] (teehee silly you)

I know, hard to fathom.
But, you deserve some treats. You have waited oh-so-delightfully-patient, like a good dove, and your reward will not be in vain! I have some stocked up pictures that I'm saving for a few story-time-days... You know, when it's gray outside... and you have nothing else to do.... fall back on my picture-stories :)

You guys know that internet meme regarding the "Dos Equis Beer Guy"....?
I did one :}

"I don't always drink tea, but when I do... I wear a cape."

I TOLD you you'd be rewarded ;) Feel free to mock. You know it's great.

Happy Tuesday.

<3 bex...

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old habits - shall die young

2011-07-25T17:04:00.000-07:00

Just like last time,
you're all that's on my mind.
Even when you're not.

At thoughts of your long-lost charm
I can't strengthen my weak breath...

or stop the curl at the edge of my mouth...
it's like,
holding onto hating you is
all I feel I have left.

So next time I cross your mind
will your heart skip a single, unnoticed beat?
Will you accidentally forget a name, in the middle of your speech?
Or will you push me even further aside...
Until you spring clean and throw me away?

Here I find myself again,
writing these words that don't matter - to you.
writing on lines that don't care - about you.
writing about someone who doesn't care - about me.

I think it's time I was done with you.
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Let's Discuss Defenses

2011-07-05T17:01:00.000-07:00

http://www.sarahwilson.com.au/2011/06/im-bored-of-my-bullsht-defenses-im-shedding-my-bark/

This seems about right.

:)

Right? Right.

Have a great(hot!!!) Tuesday, loves.

<3, bex

Friday Feature

2011-07-01T15:17:00.000-07:00

Ok, here's the plan. (You all read this post on Tuesday, yes?)

Good, keep this tab open :)

And right click HERE. Choose "Open in new tab."
The song should start automatically after it loads, be patient!

And read Tuesdays post again... while letting the other tab play.

And then tell me if you feel what I wrote. This is obviously a little different than usual.

But I don't often write with the instrumentals of anything playing in my head, so....

Just testing the waters here.

It's by Bitcrush: "Falling Inward" <-- FYI, it's a little tricky to find on Youtube... I wish you happy searching, if the link doesn't play thru completely. Give me a heads up if it won't cooperate for you & I'll email you the song :)

Here's the rest of the plan(in case you were wondering):

HAVE A GREAT WEEEEEEEE-KEND! :}

But umm, since this weekend is the Nation's "Freedom Celebration," be sure to use caution(wear goggles, and gloves too!) when driving thru neighborhoods full of rambunctious children. You know who I'm talking about- the kids/parents/pyromaniac's setting off their fireworks in the middle of the ROAD.

I just wanna yell: "Hello! Responsible adult with business to take care of, COMING THRU!"

*shakes head*

I know none of you darlings would ever be caught lighting your

neighborhoods on fire, or blowing off an arm accidentally. Ahem, Correct????...???!!

That's what I thought :)

Be safe, please.

<3, bex

A sample...

2011-06-28T22:05:00.000-07:00

I listened to a song
with my whole body tuning in

I let the notes soak into my achey joints;
my bones felt lighter and my muscles
finally rested still.

Closing my eyes, the pull of
a vacuum wind moved me silently forward...
through the changes of seasons.
The icey chill of a February frost
forming on the buds of new grass in sunrise.

I saw the ocean in my mind, heard
nothing but seagulls, and crashing
effortless waves of countless fallen tears
that a dry bed had captured thousands of years ago.

The sunshine was the loudest - it
touched everything, the invisible
warmth it gave for free, was it's
own symphony.

There was a pulse too infinite to describe.
And for a minute, slowly I hear each raindrop,
each bird land, each lioness paw at the Earth in a dead run...
And I am back again driving in
the night. Safe in the confines
of my routine.

I smile because although I feel
loss, I feel love. In my
weakness, I have a strength.

I will gain all that I love,
that determined quality
is truly, me.

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Friday, you should come back after you've read this thru a few times. Why? Get the feel of it, and then hear the music that inspired this, and which fits the motion.
Then tell me what ya think. Oh and my parent's Surprise Anniversary Party went swimmingly. That was the announcement from last week, you guys! Thanks to those of you, my dearest friends who helped coordinate and for all your delicious COOKING. x} It was more than enough food.

See you Friday :)
Be safe, birdies.
<3, bex.

shhhhhhhh!

2011-06-24T17:14:00.000-07:00

Don't tell that I skipped. Skipped what? Huh?

Who?
LAST SATURDAY I WENT & RAN THRU THE MUD. Oh yes I did!

I totally have been holding out on you. If you haven't been enlightened as to JUST how cute 13 year olds can be...wait... I mean THESE mindless kids... You've been missing out. PLEASE WATCH :)

"..a hundred forty characters is moooore than enough!"

... Oh, hai! You're here. What was I saying?

Wednesday I went on a bike ride!

Here's mah boys...

Today... I went with a Client to pick out their house materials...

Holy moley...4 hours later...

I was officially bored.

And then...

I SNAPPED!

And then they fed me :)

Yay!

THIS IS A PIECE OF TILE.

Isn't it purdy? It looks like metal!

The End.

My SURPRISE event is this weekend, and I'll tell you about it next week- cause if I did now.... welllllllllll that would be a DUMB move. I'm a woman *points to brain*...

Have a great weekend, you silly shenanigans :]

<3, bex...

Friday grew wings!!

2011-06-18T00:34:00.000-07:00

Whoa. My Friday flew by a little faster than I expected, how about yours?? I'm getting ready for bed and wanted to drop you all a line- I didn't forget my promise... Of an announcement!

Remember when I said "this dirty thing" a few weeks back? You didn't click thru, did you? :P I don't blame you. So it's called the "Survivor Mud Run" and I'll be participating tomorrow with a few friends. Wish me speedy legs and expansive lungs!!

I'll be back Tuesday with a mini-recap hopefully if I remember(someone PLEASE remind me!)!
Take care :]

<3, cyber-Bex (heh heh don't be J.)

Making it up to you.

2011-06-14T16:46:00.000-07:00

WOAH. I know I totally left you hanging last Friday, and I sorta apologize... but don't you think for a minute I'd leave you for too long. I was busy being cool and stuff... you know, having things to do, and making messes to clean, and wasting time to let my brain re-coordinate. Happy stuff :) Listen here, don't you judge me. I have a life outside my blog! Okay okay, so moving on.

I'm going to recommend other places for you to go read today :)

"But WHYYY?!" you beg? Because I am human, and humans get tired, and

I'm tired of typing right now. I'll be back Friday, with an announcement that is more for

my own excitement than yours.

Maybe I'll see you there?! I hope!!

Peterdewolf.com

| because if you are reading my shenanigans, then you will LOVE this guys work.

http://smittenkitchen.com/

| because I know you all enjoy eating.

http://leilabrewsterphotographyblog.com/

| because she is a wonderful photog and I know you all like to stare down pretty pictures.

http://edped.tumblr.com/

| because if you are here, you like to laugh about relatable topics, and this is relatable stuff :)

[Also I'd like to point out that blogspot thinks relatable is not a word. I'm pretty sure it is. Right?]

Anywho, hope that is enough to keep your little mittens tied over til Friday.

Come back!!!

<3, bex.

Me. In a nutshell.

2011-06-07T15:44:00.000-07:00

Me, every morning.

Me, the rest of the day.

Summer is nearing the riverbend

2011-06-03T16:23:00.000-07:00

Don't act like you didn't start singing that 'Pocahontas' song.

:]

I've been doing a bit of waitressing at a family friend's Mexican restaurant for the last 2 weeks. And it's WAY more fun than I thought it would be. (Watch: tonight at work, I'll get a drink thrown in my face.)

In other news... Have I told you about how misbehaved my dogs are? They are. See...

Up on the furniture like it ain't no thang. *shakes head*

I went on a bike ride in the rain Wednesday, and almost ran THIS over.

One more thing... this girl...

she CRACKS me UP!

Most fun ever.

Check out Mia's own photography here.

Incredible Photog skills!

Go adventure, outside!!

I'm writing less today, to get you to read less just for THIS WEEKEND,

since it's supposed to be so beautiful here in Seattle. Enjoy!

See you Tuesday.

<3 Bex.

Top o' the Tuesday to yer!

2011-05-31T16:24:00.000-07:00

hai!

THIS WEEKEND!!!! I was in a photo shoot for my photographer-friend-Jenna, who is super creative & talented. She came up with this idea to photograph us in a field of yellow buttercups, & we were to act sad & forlorn over a "lost love." Oh that sounds weird to you, huh? CHECK IT OUT. As I say, don't knock it, 'til you try it ;) It turned out to be a beautiful day, and all the pollen was floating freely... now I am congested beyond belief. BUT, it was worth it. :] I know, I'm weird. Promise to go see Jenna, and the whole shebang???(coughINCLUDES-BLOOPER-REELcough) Dang, excuse my dry throat. Go see her blog NOW! She's for hire!! ;)
Here's a little teaser story for ya...

Oh HOW shall I ever recover? ...

...His love was all I knew.

~~~

Hey, wait a sec! I'm important too!

"Plus I'm tired of sitting around moping!"

"Time to dry our eyes, friend."

We will pick flowers. We will see the world.
We will see new faces in our flowers!

Oh, and we'll make GRR faces at new people too.

;]

See you Friday, knucklehead.

<3, bex.

Friday = Fabulous

2011-05-27T16:23:00.000-07:00

Guys, JUST yesterday was/felt like Tuesday, and I had forgotten to post my Tuesday Treat, so you found it lying around somewhere on Wednesday's plate. Weird, huh(as if my forgetfulness is abnormal)?

[So, think of it this way... if I had a pet turtle, and I forgot to feed it Tuesday, he'd have to wait 'til Wednesday(oh wait, I DO have a turtle! That means..uh oh) to eat and that's just not fair! ]

oops. Poor Miguel.

Well, here it is: Friday. And it feels like a blur already. It is a GREAT day tho, because:

1.) my hair is rockin'.

2.) my FAVORITE REDHEAD is coming to visit me for the ENTIRE weekend- I pick her up tonight! and...

3.) it's sorta sunshiney and beautiful outside :] (update: it's BRIGHTLY sunny & raining HUGE drops-_-)

and OH YEAH there's a 4th...I went jogging this morning @ 6:30. Refreshing!

I also just noticed that I'm ALMOST to 150 posts!! Wow.
The date for the 150th post shall be..... *drum roll* ... June 3rd! Next Friday!

Do you all promise to come back and share your favorite moment of laughter with me, in a comment? I love funny stories!

Well I don't have TOO much more for ya, except for a little picture adventure, to show you how my last weekend went! Ready? GO!

I hung these rope lights in my room, in anticipation of summer. I love having these lit on our back porch when we have BBQ's or enjoy an evening around the firepit.

My cousin and I...
we have traveling good times.

We have an odd resemblance, eh? I can't pinpoint what it is,
but you can tell we're family. Besides the fact that his mom/my aunt & I look a TON alike. Creepy...

So, my point is: Adam is a lifesaver.
He knows what to say when I am having a rough day/week and
he can easily brighten my day with his giant bear hug.
-->Shout-out to my favorite cousin: You're the best, cuz.<--

Next UP: This is from about a month ago. One of the most perfect days, ever.

:] this day.

And last, but NOT least. Adam and I almost ran over a few Vikings last Saturday.
NO JOKE.

In the flesh!! haha jk... We drove past them downtown, during Viking Fest. But we really almost did run them over.... trying to get a picture! :P

~they'll never know it was me MUWAHAHA!~

Don't walk too close to the edge of your sidewalks, because you never know where Adam & I might be adventuring! And we may almost run you over ;) Just teasing.

Please DO be super safe tho. Look both ways before crossing the street. And always kiss your mother when you see her!! Doesn't matter if you live with her or not! :]

Have fun tomorrow, kittens. Miss you already.

<3, Bex.

tuesday treat... :}

2011-05-25T23:46:00.000-07:00

=D Haha. So much truth to this.

Clever Marketing...

2011-05-21T14:49:00.000-07:00

Good day to you :)
Anyone else see what I see in this picture?
Yeah it's grainy and horrible, but you can still see what I see.

[...Look closer?....]

Why YES. That is a Starbucks Drive-thru built into a bank.

Genius or Heinous?

You already know where I stand :]
_____________________

I wish you a great weekend, & try to find a little adventure... who knows how hard you'll end up laughing about it later.

<3, bex

The thing about love...

2011-05-17T13:54:00.000-07:00

underpass near my work

This made me smile.

The thing about love is that you can find it in anyONE, anyTHING, anyWHERE.

Sometimes we just have to look a little harder than the surface to see it.

& who says it's gotta be more than just vandalizing a public underpass? ;)

I think it's perfect.

xoxo, bex

------------------------

p.s.! Soon! And I mean SOON! There's gonna be another little tab born, F-Y-E.
Keep your eyes peeled. You're welcome.

~

Things I've been up to...

2011-05-13T16:46:00.000-07:00

What have you been up to?

Spelunking? Designing secure entries in underground tunnels for the President? Shredding documents that bear social security numbers? Restocking books at your Barnes & Noble job? Me neither. BUT HOLY SMOKES have I been on busy-overload. Lemme Es'plain....

I am training hard for some dirty, filthy, fun thing that's gonna happen in June. Therefore I am at the gym 5 days a week(phew). That in itself, takes up 2 hours of my day because of travel, changing, and showering time. Then I have class 4-5 days a week as well; this is from 10-11:30ish. I work part time from 1-5pm Mon-Fri, too. Plus I have a particular 2 hour(usually) bracket dedicated to Wednesday nights. Also Tuesday & Thursday night engagements that require preparation and study.

Where is my bracket for laundry?

Where do I fit in maintaining my health? My makeup? Cleaning my bathroom?

DON'T get me wrong here... I am in no way complaining! :)
I absolutely love my busy schedule.

I love the fact that it keeps my mind engaged and always revolving, anticipating the next event; stimulating creative parts of my brain that I haven't used in a while. That is sincerely priceless to me. It's the small things, right?

And so now I've added another task for myself. I am planning ... Ah-HEM... an Event. It's not a blog event, it's just something I need to do(that might be mildly HUGE), and something I've been meaning to do for a year now. You'll see pictures in about 2 months when it's over, but SHHH I can't tell you what it is. You understand, right? I'll show you pictures of other things, now though :) Ready? Me too!!

I went here between work & school the other week, to catch up on reading & some vitamin D. I've realized that whenever POSSIBLE that I have 10-30 minutes of free time, and it's somewhat sunny outside- I HAVE to take advantage, and sit outside for mental recovery from running around in whirlwinds. What a blessing :] Relaxation is such a gift.

Being crazy is also a gift :)

Recently.... I revived my love for all things orange(not counting soda, of course). Remember that Nickelodeon(oh hey, the Nick logo is orange, too right??) show back in the late 90's called "Kenan & Kel?" Remember how Kenan would entice Kel into doing some-mischievous-thing for him, by bribing him with orange soda?

Kenan: "WHO. LOVES. ORANGE. SODA?
KELLLLLLL Loves orange soda."

Kel: "I do, I do, I DO-OOOOOH!"

Guess who else had a serious orange soda addiction in her younger years? This dude. Check it out. I've been eating oranges like they're goin' outta style. And it doesn't fulfill my craving for them, either. Weird, huh?

You succulent little darling.

*le sigh*

ANYWHO. That's what I've been up to. Enjoying life :)

Now tell me about your recent enjoyments/disappointments & we'll figure out how to either make them better, or how to get you to visit me so we can have an adventure for me to share with all our friends :)

xoxo, bex

bloom.

2011-05-10T13:33:00.000-07:00

I saw a moving picture
a little red head girl was entranced by the sight of an unfolding orange flower.
That is how I feel, most days.

discovering things I thought I knew,
discovering me, in different ways.

I am picky, I am inconsistent.
I want everything, while I want nothing but honesty.

I betrayed you. I was keeping my options open,
when I told you it was wrong...
and now I, twice burned myself
and reach back for a third-
and the flame is gone.
Why?
I am the one who turned it off.
Why am I sad?

So I write.
And I will keep doing this until
I have figured it out. Which,
won't happen... I've already smoldered the struggling spark.

-------------------------------------------------------------------

An hour by the sea...

2011-05-06T13:10:00.000-07:00

December was quite chillin'. And by "chillin'" I mean I froze my arsenal off most days... it keeps coming back tho, so... your guess is as good as mine on that. ANYWAY. Being the ~~dummy~~ explorer that I am, I conned a couple of my besties into coming to the Northern Land of Port Angeles with me, to run a couple errands.

While we were up there in Antarctica, we went to the ocean. YEAH. We went to the ocean. Let me tell you something... It. Was. Cold. And guess what I wore? A wool sweater. YEAH. I'm not sounding too intelligent here, so I'll just shush myself, and show you the shots. It was crisply beautiful. The pics don't relay that tho, just pretend it's magnificent. mmkay? mmkay.

Highlights: Kid, taught my cousin Adam(also one of my besties) how to skip a stone. In the ocean spray, which was about 25 degrees Fahr(-eezing!!)enheit, we stood like brave Seagulls, enduring the howling Canadian winds. I though, being a woman... gathered my few smarts that hadn't frozen over, walked across the jetty to the non-windy side, and took a couple snapshots which I cannot find anywhere right now(sorry, dolls. That's how rough it is in these streets). I apologize for the crappy picture quality... I honestly can't explain what happened... Just read on...

"Now, LISTEN Son. This is how you skip a rock."

"Use this arm. Pull back, throw, and don't lose your balance!"

"Eeeaasssy now..."

- "Like, THIS dad?!"
- "Yes. Whoa now, watch your step."

"Here GOES!"

- "Where'd it go, dad?"
*silence*

"Let me show you how it's done, son."
*iBAM!*

"I'm walking away now, you've embarrassed me enough."

- This was the part of the trip when I got bright green moss stains all over my
light-wash jeans. Yeah, that was my favorite. -

Then, Kid pronounced this land "COLD."

But I could barely hear him 'cause I was heading back to the car...

Goodbye car! Adam sold you a few weeks ago. I'm glad I got to reminisce over our good times.

*le sigh*

Have a safe week!! :)

Adventures, even the bleakest(see above), can be fun when you've got the right attitude.

So as Benny Goodman says:

"You've got to laugh a little, cry a little,

until the clouds roll by a little."

xox, bex

Tuesday's not so terrible

2011-05-03T18:55:00.000-07:00

Oh green current, please dip and divide
beneath an invisible, treacherous line..

the foam jade sea eyes my drive, it tells me
calm is near while it's mouth speaks left & right;
signals that I'm too tired, or just too out of sight...
staying low, creeping slow, firm tides are kept so tight,
holding the moon, the sky, the shadow it provides.

Controls beseeches me to gather pieces of its fallen light
and when I watch its ease, the troubles relax inside my mind.

Again stormy motion calms my shivering worry
sending a relapse of my senses away in a hurry.
I have seconds to breathe, to re-live and forget;
to rid this teasing consciousness, pretending a duet.

I DID take this :)

Friday: you sweet, sweet melody I sing for all week.

2011-04-29T14:34:00.000-07:00

Hallelujah. Literally :)
Friday has come, and Friday will go, but now here you are, so listen up YO!

"Firepits are where the BEST memories are made." -C.

True, yeah? Yup. Glad we agree. Last Sunday my dad mowed the lawn. And the sun was peeking around the corner, so I hauled the troops in for a small-within-city-limits-approved-bonfire. Here's the whole scoop. I can't START a fire, but once it's alive, I totally rock at keeping it burning. Also, Jessica said I could "make it in North Dakota" because I can chop a log into kindling. THAT'S WHATS UP.

Step 1. Jessica(green) gets the fire going.
Then Shelby(pink) gives him a mustache.

Personally, I think it's proportionate to his giant stature.

Step 2. Shelby claims the fire-pit as her own.

Much like how you claim your own food in the work-place refrigerator.

Step 3. Chop more wood to keep the fire burning.
And as I was the 'photog' for the evening, no one got a shot of ME ch-ch-choppin' it up. But here is an excellent action shot of Jessica with a nice swing.

I did however, gather a rather dashing picture of my sweet pink Keds,
after I tore up a couple logs.
...wait that sounds bad....

I think they deserve a little spotlight.

Then Patrick hit a homerun, with a pinecone. His talent is beyond me.

See his lanyard? It's purple. Kiss that, Justin Beiber!

Oh that reminds me, I heard randomly that little J.B. got beat up by a 'fan'?

Anyone hear anything about this? Yeah me neither.... well..barely.

Back to my story - I'm easily distracted- Shelby had a rough time with her first marshmallow...

What you see here folks, is mellow, marshed all over her hand. I can't even fathom how you get that marshmallow goo all over the TOP of your fingers. The right pic is the marshmallow goo ON HER EYELASH. She had a rough evening, lets just say. At least no one lost an eyeball.

We managed to live thru it all.

Have a safe weekend! Live up those fire-pit moments, and holler

if you need me to chop any wood for ya.

I was killin' it.

<3 much, bex

New Paper

2011-04-26T17:06:00.000-07:00

I enjoy typing. But more than typing, I enjoy w-r-i-t-i-n-g.
....Do any of you remember what that looks like?

I got a new notebook yesterday, for school... but I of course, had to christen the first page with a little doodle.

What'd you do, on your scary Monday?

Monday's don't seem so bad to me now that I have school again... I know that sounds backwards, but it's only because Monday class is simply an hour of taking notes on a Power Point presentation that my "teacher" talks over. Basically, he could email them to us, and I could sleep in more... :P Just a suggestion.

Anyway, back to my normal font size...This last week was a long one, for me. Lots of helping friends(not bad, just emotionally-demanding...) with issues, lots of waiting and waiting and WAITING for the right thing to come along :] Lots of travel; which automatically makes me ready for bed x) The actual traveling part is exciting, but when I'm done, I realize my body needs a rest(don't gotta tell ME twice).

This weekend, I am off to Seattle to finish my big 50 hours of volunteer-work for the month, and to meet lots of new people! I can't wait! It will be rewarding and fulfilling and I can't wait to have some sushi with no seafood in it. I know, I'm weird ;)

Be safe, loves. Travel responsibly, and be honest with your best friend when he/she asks: "Grrrrl, you think mah butt gettin' BIG??"

<3, bex.

ps. I got acupuncture today and it wasn't half bad. See? I'm still alive :)

I said, Good day to YOU!!!

Attention, Starbucks!

2011-04-22T13:54:00.000-07:00

Excuse me, Starbucks.

I don't recall giving you permission to

change your logo.

If this is some sort of rebellion, I'll understand. I mean... there are thousands of independent java huts around this peninsula, who don't consistently burn our espresso shots.

So I get that.

But I think this is a little overboard. It looks to me, like you're trying to DUMB us down.

I don't know about you, but most coffee-addicts including myself, can READ.

You don't need to remove the WORDING.

I'm almost offended.

No, you know what? I AM offended.

Below, see this logo in the background?

I'm gonna miss it.

RIP Starbucks' Authenticity....

'Cause remember THIS one? It'was my fave.

credit

Is that wrong of me? It's a tad ....

well she's nakie, sure. But she's the original!!

Oh well, as with everything else looking streamlined, I guess they

would have ripped my heart to shreds ONE of these days.

Not that I'm super obsessed with their coffee ANYway, but it might have been nice if they'd asked my opinion, first.

;)

[/rant]
IN OTHER NEWS...
Tomorrow I'll be in the great Emerald City ALL day and you don't even know how excited I am.
SO. EXCITED.
GUYS! Have a fantastic weekend, 'cause you've earned it. This week was a little rough, AMIRITE?!

Talk with you soon chikadee's.
<3 bex...

How College Sucks Your Life Away & Other Highlights

2011-04-19T10:31:00.000-07:00

I got a parking ticket last week.
And I thought, in my rage, "I won't stand for this! This is highway robbery! They can't get away with this!"

And so the plan was to tap dance on their Security Administrator's desk until my justice was served. But you have to turn in your "appeal"(What is this? The real 'People's Court' of Judge Judy!?) 5 days after the initial 'infraction' was recorded. Which means that I missed the deadline. (Warning! Sarcasm!)Oh well, I guess next time I'll decide that $25 is worth less than not being able to find a legitimate spot, when I'm almost late for class. OH WAIT. I WASN'T BREAKING ANY RULES. And now I will justify myself publicly, to get this off my chest, so that I don't break out in Shingles, from stressing over it... again.(run on sentence much?) And then I will depart, cause I'm seriously supposed to be working on my Dreamweaver project. Much love, have a great week!! I've got Starbucks-flavored-content for Friday!

xoxo, bex.

Ready? I'm excited to show you.See??????

NOTICE: 1.) NO blocking of the parking space in front of my Jeep.
2.) NO parking over striped lines on the ground.

NOTICE: 1.) TONS of space- at least 25ft- between me and the car behind.
2.) NO PAINTED CURB. No Red, No Yellow, NO NOTHING.

Tuesday + Friday = Thursday. HA!

2011-04-14T16:43:00.000-07:00

Oh wow, sorry everyone. APPARENTLY my brain is behind on what day it is. And I totally blanked that Tuesday even happened. But I am not going to let you down(totally). I've got quite a few pictures to share with you. And yes, this will be fun. I'm gonna tell you about my week :) And this doubles as Friday's post too(don't whine- no one likes a whiner) just FYI. NO, that is NOT called cheating. Ok, so maybe it is. Onward! :)

First things first, and that means food.

Last Saturday I made muffins. And I made quite a few. And I made them from a box (no laughing, Hoolia!). I definitely don't find plain muffin mix exciting, so I added my own extras as usual. These WERE destined to be just (blah)Oat Bran muffins. UNTIL I added molasses and cinnamon and chocolate chips.
Oh, yes I did.

NEXT UP!

Basic blueberry(oops, no fun inside extras), with a toasty marshmallow on top.

I kinda folded the fruit in the mixture a little too delicately...so you can't really see the blueberry color....at all. Anywho, they were scrumptious. I'm so sad you missed out ;}

Then hell froze over. And I wore my hair curly. Really, tho. It's not too curly, it's more of a pathetic wave. You know when Napoleon Dynamite waves at his date at the prom, and she ignores him? That's the kind of pity-feeling I give myself, when I try to scrunch my hair with curling mousse, and it just falls like this. Not too terrible, I guess... if you like that whole "rejected" feeling. :P

And lastly...

I drove down to a little inlet area in my community to watch the sunset, because the day was clear and my brain was not. So I wanted to share that moment with my blog-babies. That's you. Sorry, you're probably not a baby. I'm just slightly callous-slash-crabby about the 2 sorta-sunny days we had, now that it's POURING rain again.

*le sigh*

Who's not surprised? [raises hand.]

pee, es: This weekend I'm going out of town and I'm going to have FUN DARNIT! :]

pee, es, es: Speaking of clearing my mind at the waterfront... I have a sweet treat for you next Tuesday!

xoxo, bex

Please use your brains this weekend, kids. No unchaperoned dangerous activities, and if you're gonna get into trouble, don't forget to call me! *holla!*

Zomgitsfriday Poetism. Not my birthday!

2011-04-08T10:30:00.000-07:00

Found this incredible poem on a site I've linked to before, the Kind Over Matter. Be warned! It's a little girly, just sayin.... YOU PEOPLE: Coming back time after time and reading even my worst output, means the world to me! BUT...today I've got a great piece for you. I have been saving this gem for quite a while, and I hope it gives you goosebumps the way it did to me. And I hope you plant seeds of truth in all your words today, remembering that you expect the same from others.

Birthday

At 12 years old I started bleeding with the moon
and beating up boys who dreamed of becoming astronauts.
I fought with my knuckles white as stars,
and left bruises the shape of Salem.
There are things we know by heart,
and things we don't.

At 13 my friend Jen tried to teach me how to blow rings of smoke.
I'd watch the nicotine rising from her lips like halos,
but I could never make dying beautiful.
The sky didn't fill with colors the night I convinced myself
veins are kite strings you can only cut free.
I suppose I love this life,

in spite of my clenched fist.

I open my palm and my lifelines look like branches from an Aspen tree,
and there are songbirds perched on the tips of my fingers,
and I wonder if Beethoven held his breath
the first time his fingers touched the keys
the same way a soldier holds his breath
the first time his finger clicks the trigger.
We all have different reasons for forgetting to breathe.

But my lungs remember
the day my mother took my hand and placed it on her belly
and told me the symphony beneath was my baby sister's heartbeat.
And I knew life would tremble
like the first tear on a prison guard's hardened cheek,
like a prayer on a dying man's lips,
like a vet holding a full bottle of whisky like an empty gun in a war zone…
just take me just take me

Sometimes the scales themselves weigh far too much,
the heaviness of forever balancing blue sky with red blood.
We were all born on days when too many people died in terrible ways,
but you still have to call it a birthday.
You still have to fall for the prettiest girl on the playground at recess
and hope she knows you can hit a baseball
further than any boy in the whole third grade

and I've been running for home
through the windpipe of a man who sings
while his hands playing washboard with a spoon
on a street corner in New Orleans
where every boarded up window is still painted with the words
We're Coming Back
like a promise to the ocean
that we will always keep moving towards the music,
the way Basquait slept in a cardboard box to be closer to the rain.

Beauty, catch me on your tongue.
Thunder, clap us open.
The pupils in our eyes were not born to hide beneath their desks.
Tonight lay us down to rest in the Arizona dessert,
then wake us washing the feet of pregnant women
who climbed across the border with their bellies aimed towards the sun.
I know a thousand things louder than a soldier's gun.
I know the heartbeat of his mother.

Don't cover your ears, Love.
Don't cover your ears, Life.
There is a boy writing poems in Central Park
and as he writes he moves
and his bones become the bars of Mandela's jail cell stretching apart,
and there are men playing chess in the December cold
who can't tell if the breath rising from the board
is their opponents or their own,
and there's a woman on the stairwell of the subway
swearing she can hear Niagara Falls from her rooftop in Brooklyn,
and I'm remembering how Niagara Falls is a city overrun
with strip malls and traffic and vendors
and one incredibly brave river that makes it all worth it.

Ya'll, I know this world is far from perfect.
I am not the type to mistake a streetlight for the moon.
I know our wounds are deep as the Atlantic.
But every ocean has a shoreline
and every shoreline has a tide
that is constantly returning
to wake the songbirds in our hands,
to wake the music in our bones,
to place one fearless kiss on the mouth of that brave river
that has to run through the center of our hearts
to find its way home.
-
Andrea Gibson

Have a safe weekend :)

xoxo, bex

Tuesday Cheer Up

2011-04-06T10:17:00.000-07:00

Guess what!
You are beautiful.

True story, see? :)
Enjoy your Tuesday, kittenfaces.

xoxo, Bex...

First Day of School. Again.

2011-04-01T18:48:00.000-07:00

I know you all want to hear about this... ;P

Monday, was my first day back to "School," aka "College." I had a constant adrenaline rush all morning 'cause I was so nervous, but it was sort of a good, swimming blur(so good, that I fell into a 2 hour coma when I got home around 5pm.). I met my quarter "quota" of ONE new friend per class(2 of them!) by Thursday. Let me elaborate...

-Met James, in my very first class for Systems Concepts(M/W/F), on the very first day. Tuesday, I had my Dreamweaver class(Tues/Thrs) and nervously flashed a grin at the girl who came and sat down next to me. So Wednesday back to my 1st class....but then James wasn't there ...And just WHO was I supposed to sit by?! Haha I kid. I made it through like an adult, taking notes in all my glory, while the teacher gave his lecture. And the lady sitting in front of me tactfully turned around to make sure I was paying attention halfway thru the class(Pfff).

Thursday, upon entering my Dreamweaver class again- there was 'nice girl' walking in too. So I threw my brave-face to her and asked "Are you gonna sit by me? I'm Bex[err..whatever my real name is]." She accepted my invitation. I am very pleased with my lack of conversation skills. HA!
-Oh! and her name is Courtney. Just to prove that she really exists.

Stresses? My books for both classes JUST came in today -_- So I'll be doing homework, write-ups, analysis([pluralized?? analyses?) over my WEEKEND, instead of playing, like all normal college-kids are supposed to ;)

Overall Analysis?(I'm over-using this word to prepare myself for 'Computer Concepts' assignments- ALL of them are titled "Unit analysis such-and-such.") ...I think I'll survive this after all :)

Prediction:I'll be cooped up in my 'weekend pants' every evening from 5-10 if you need me. Enjoy yourselves! Tell me about your adventures :) So I can vicariously live thru yours!!

xoxo, bex

Batman Rides Again...wait..

2011-03-29T14:10:00.000-07:00

You're Welcome.

Happy Tuesday.

And this was acquired from a little entertaining tumblr... Highly recommended and funny.

'Tis time to pay Caesar. Oh wait, he's paying me!

2011-03-25T15:11:00.000-07:00

Good Friday to you!

Have you all been good boys & girls, and filed your taxes already? I just did.

Lincoln is excited, but he's hiding his emotion here. He's not 'big' on being expressive.

Man! That is a crappy picture! Praxis! iPhone quality is only good on certain occasions.

*sigh*

You guys? I start school MONDAY. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

I mean ... yay? *shakes in the corner* I'm nervous. Not only am I going to school.... but(emphatic pause).. I'm going to school. Does that make sense? OkayOkay lemme e'splain. I'm nervous. I hate school. I'm going back voluntarily. Ayy.

Geez, that wasn't so hard was it?

Well, my week was fairly uneventful, I've been preparing for the 28th(1st day of school) for about 2 weeks now. First it was "exciting, cause I get to sleep in for a week before!", then it was... "this is happening!" and now it's just... "[dread] UGH I'm gonna have homework and projects to do."
Ew, school, how dare you lure me!
:) Just kidding, I'm ready to start something new and to have a little "college" notch in my belt of various things I happen to be interested/dabbling in.

Ok now to enjoy my last weekend before I mentally throw myself back to 11th grade(including the black emo bangs)...I'm going out of town.

Nanner. Nanner.

xox, bex.

I adopted...

2011-03-23T13:25:00.000-07:00

(OMG What is WITH me forgetting to post?!) ...

There was this one day that I ran across a pair of monkey's I couldn't turn down.

After all, they were on sale.

See? You would have done the same in my situation.

Don't judge me. You want a pair.

I scoot around the house in them, and I remain STATIC FREE thanks to their rubber soles.

That's right. BE jealous.

xoxo, bex..

This is Top Secret.

2011-03-18T14:06:00.000-07:00

I share my most terrifying moments with you, my dearest friends.

I'm sorry. But it was too fun, to keep to myself.

Have a great day and get back to me with a great 'capture' of your own :) AKA:

"whatever-you-think-is-an-attempt-to-top-this-awesomeness."

Sorry this is so short, but I've had a LONG week,
so please accept my apologies and have a SUPER safe, and responsibly fun weekend :D

xoxoxo bex...

It didn't stick.

2011-03-16T14:27:00.000-07:00

Woops! This post is late!! Sorry :(
I've started my part-time schedule this week, guys! I guess that threw me off, cause I totally forgot to post yesterday. WELL, here you are, muffinhead!
Just for you :) See you Friday!!

Over another...
All that day, I never thought of another.
For an hour it seems, I was able to stare...
to try and memorize your features.
Over and Over, like a blind woman uses her hands
to see; I arranged
your face in my head over and over.

And I still don't have it down.
Guess I should have been thinking of another.

Sonny and Cher would be proud.

2011-03-11T10:34:00.000-08:00

Dove face! You came back :] So glad. Thanks for joining me on my Friday ritual of CELEBRATING the end of yet another speedy-week! Tell me about your week, was it terrible? Was it memorable in any way?

I have something to tell you. (Shh!!) I - officially - am - a - college - student.
WHOA. I know. Calm down. Put that Silly String away! :) But whip out that Long Island Iced Tea!! I could use a relaxer. This week has been HECTIC and great. Maddening and excitingly happy. Just ready for it to balance out again(hello, WEEKEND!) and be back to work again Monday morning... PART. TIME. Ya heard!! Part time!!!

I CAN'T WAIT! The first classes I'm taking are 'Intro to Dreamweaver' and 'Intro to Systems Concepts'. I'm done talking about me. Here's a little something I wrote during a downpour that kept my mind flooded(ya like that pun?) full of things I had been feeling, that the rain helped release. OH! And Seattle is really under a Tsunami Watch right now. CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? Crazy. Not nearly as serious as the one for Japan, today. :( Oh, keep them in your prayers, please. So scary!! Pick your chin up and get ready(put on your weekend pants!) to responsibly celebrate relaxation. :) Have a safe couple days. xoxoxo!!

Fake Rain.
Waves of water bullets slap the blacktop.
I don't think I've ever seen it so ridiculous-
it can't be real, because I feel like I'm watching
the fake rain in any romantic comedy....

...drenching the couple who are arguing in the "downpour"...
rekindling a love they figured had been lost.

What's my next line? And you're late; aren't you supposed to be standing here,
telling me what you hate most about me-
and it ends up being completely endearing?

You're just late, that's all. Tied up by a thousand red lights,
or an errand, that unexpectedly got drawn out.
Story of our lives, right? You and I... we're off, time-wise,
but we're right, in the rightest way.
And I'll wait.
And I won't be mad when you finally get here.
Cause that's love.
That's you & I, babe.

I like funny things.

2011-03-08T11:48:00.000-08:00

I like this...

Excel Batman... Batman always excels... just throwin' that out there...

Hello-funniest-video-I've-seen-all-week! (big foot caught on tape!)

I was at Azteca(@$$teca??) this last Friday, and this was the

bathroom stall-door decoration. Cute? I think so.

This is just too funny, in an unrealistic-take-it-with-a-grain-of-salt type way...

Praxis and I have an ongoing joke of ways to get out of the "friend-zone"...

A laugh was shared.

Also, I've been sick this week, since last Wednesday(thank you, co-worker)... and this is what I saved from an iced-tea-run to gauge my constant massive water-intake. This is a 'venti' size, I think that means 22 oz? 26? I need to be drinking about 6 of these a day... (that equals a lot of potty trips...)

Anywho. One last thing to make you "aww" is this...

Awwww... Tiny pinecone. And my hands are small anyway- so that says something!

Cute!

It's Tuesday. May it melt all your Monday troubles away!

xox, bex.

I don't believe you!

2011-03-04T09:20:00.000-08:00

Friday has rolled around YET again. *shock & awe*

All this week, it's been about 3 different seasons.
Summer is the only one missing... of course -_-

It's been
1.) Sunny & Freezing(fall-like),
2.) Snowy(snow that falls as snow, and hits like rain), and disgustingly muddy everywhere
3.) Rainy & windy(sarcasm alert: MY FAVORITE!)

So imagine my delight when I leave my house one BRIGHT & freezing morning for

work... and I look up to see this:

Yeah, beautiful! (Thanks iPhone!)

Then I look down, to step off the porch and see this:

Uhh, what? Snow? I don't believe it, so I'll just pretend I didn't see that.

After all, there's no snow anywhere else....

See? I don't believe it. And YES these really were all taken in the same 3 minute span.

Farmin' Washington.

Also, have you been introduced to Lincoln?

He's pretty fun. He's pretty impressive, actually. He's a gymnastics pro and an amateur in Tae Kawndo.
And he speaks Latvian.

Last week, it was time for him to get a bath. Ahem.

He was very hurt by this, and let it show. So sad!

When Lincoln emerged from the cleansing tho, he has passed the 'hurt' stage, and moved onto 'acceptance.'

He didn't fight the dryer, but I could tell that all he wanted, is for the process to be over with

so we could snuggle again.

Look at that forlorn face :(

Coming out fluffier than EVER, and delightfully cuddly, I decided it would be a LONG time before I put him thru the torture chamber again. After all, he's only the best little-bear a woman could ask for!

He's embarrassed by my crazy-hair.

That's freshly blow-dried, WHAAAAAATTTTT!!!! :)

That's a sign of a good parent tho; the ability to embarrass your children at any given moment.

"Please, mom NOOO!!!"

(Wow, now that I think about it, I'm embarrassed by my own hair.)

Happy weekend days, folks. You muffin-heads be safe, or else... I don't even wanna hear about speeding tickets, or broken nails!! *shudder*

Love, love, love xoxoxo Bex...

The Weekend Re-cap

2011-03-01T10:49:00.000-08:00

Wow. This weekend! Blew by, like a gust through my breezeway(o_O), but it was productive!

Firstly, Friday I saw a sight I'll probably never witness again. Too funny, NOT to get a picture(or two) this. Get a load of that!! That's aluminum foil, underneath Saran-Wrap. That would be a pain to get off, I'm sure. Severely unfortunate.

Secondly, Target(where I snapped the aluminum car) was having a sale on a few accordion file folders, so ... being tax-season and all, I'll have all my junk out to go thru anyway right? Right. So I bought a fresh one, and consolidated all my old papers into the new arrangement. Voila!
Cute, huh? :)

Hello, taupe. You look mighty fine.

HOORAY for organizing.

Then I did massive piles of laundry. Then I FOLDED massive piles of laundry. Then I changed my sheets. YESSSSSS. Is there nothing better!?

Than FRESH sheets?!

Yeah, that's 3 pillows for 1 me.

ONE new FIRM pillow, that I also got at Target last Tuesday(?), has significantly changed my sleep quality, tho- I cannot rave about my good sleep enough. It's not even an expensive one, just like $9 or something. Change your life dramatically, shop the Target brand pillows ;)

And my dog Maverick winked at me.

Spoiled rotten dog, on the leather chair. I told my parents that they have absolutely ruined him! haha

But how precious is he? :) love.

One more thing before I go..... I've been dabbling with Watercolor(watchoutNOWW!!)

You likey??
I haven't decided when I should start doing this for real, but I enjoyed myself just playing around.
Bam! Love you, munchkins. Be safe :)
Stay healthy. 'Til Friday, loves!!
xoxoxo bex

iPhone adventures!!

2011-02-25T09:29:00.000-08:00

You all know I switched to the dark side by now... right?

I mean, they've had hot fresh cookies, for a few years now, so I decided it would be worth my while.

Anywho... my iPhone has been serving me rather well. I HIGHLY enjoy(those of you who know me personally can attest to this) the organization of it.
If I pull an App button over another App button: MAGIC! A new folder is birthed into this world, and conveniently labeled an appropriate name(yes, all by itself!) pertaining to the contents, and THEN! AND THEN....you can rename it, if you so wish. *swoon*

I know. I was impressed too.
The next trick I will be discussing, is the cool photo-editing Apps I've stumbled onto. All you photo-pro's are already familiar with Photoshop Express(free!) and for you Hipsters, Instagram(free!). Of either sort, I haven't wasted any copious amounts of my (valueable?) time searching thru tons of Apps and eating up my precious 16Gigs(14G when you actually receive it, I learned! D=) with things that I won't get use out of.

Hey, no one ever said I wasn't practical ;)

I was recently introduced to a website called picnik.com where you edit your own photos for FREE. Wow- it's simple AND it's effective, and DUDE it's still cheap even if you do want to use all their "premium" editing tools. I might make the investment someday, but I just don't need it enough for now. Also, I made my web banner with it ;) You're welcome.
Thank you picnik.com!!
[shameless free marketing; feel free to return the favor.]
The other thing I really like is the instant weather report. Yeah, I'm old. I've also got Pandora at my disposal, and lastly and most high-tech-ish-ly ... Facetime. We're talking video phone calls, people. Need I say more?
Ahhhh Apple, you've given me a new world to consider. I have a lot to learn from you.

Have a safe weekend Chickens :) <3
xoxoxoxoxoxX!!

Dove Says...

2011-02-22T09:34:00.000-08:00

ahh, missed it!

still learning :)

MMkay, looks like I'll keep on, keepin' on.

love xox, bex :)

Gym'n-It-Cricket! PART 1

2011-02-18T10:16:00.000-08:00

Scene: bored at the gym(keep reading) jogging monotonously, staring out the ceiling-height windows onto a dark city, with a few sparks of life speeding around the freeways in the distance. Ok, I guess I'll keep my focus closer so I don't trip(again) and fall to my treadmill-conveyor-belt-induced-burn-on-the-face-death.

Me to myself(use your typical 'idiot' voice): "Hmm, there is a TV... I think I will let my mind wander, and get distracted by whatever's there." I am baffled by the crap TV show, 'Jersey Shore' that someone had left on. BAFFLED, guys.

Anyone else agree with me? I mean... they are obviously putting on a nice dramatic 'reality-tv" scharade for VH1's amusement, but really? Pure gross. Anyway, it got me to thinking of what kinds of other schmucks(hey I'm vividly aware that I'm the biggest schmuck in there) I am 'gym-ing it' with. I looked around to find 'Jersey Shore' type-esque gals, and didn't have to look long(I'd say far, but the gym is small). Granted this girl already had the natural tan down, but she broke my #1 rule of life... Leggings do NOT double as pants. Even if your legs are perfect. Shhh, there's no jealousy here, you're imagining that. YES, YOU ARE.

Found another Ginger. Now she's actually a human being, and by that I mean she acknowledges other people's presence. She usually waves at me when we catch glances at each other(or maybe it's just that we share a hair color??) across the gym-fodder, or if we bump into each other in the bathroom. Not much else to say about her tho, cause she doesn't give off any certain stereotype, except that she works her butt off on that stair-stepper(my arch enemy). My admiration for her continued conquering of that machine = ever growing. I just don't have "it" in me for everyday use. Moving on...

The 50-year-old-woman. You don't know her. She keeps to herself, working out quietly with -sometimes without- her husband. He's quiet too. He doesn't do much, but poor thing is already skinny. He tries to stay out of the way and let his woman do her thing, while giving her support & encouragement. Every woman's mid-life dream :)

The 60-year-old-woman. You all know her. She waves. She sweats profusely. She is there all alone, kicking elliptical derrière!! And not to mention those dumb-bells! Grandma is on FIRE! Literally, someone make her stop- I see smoke trailing off her heels!!

The All-Arms Guy(thanks to You-Know-Who-You-Are, for the idea!). He curls, he curls and then he curls some more. He uses the free weights; he uses the tricep machine; he uses the floor for his personal push-up station; and then he's on the bar for pull-ups galore. Why isn't he working on that booty?? Just sayin...

.....To be Continued. :) Enjoy your weekend, loves.

Hey, you! Yeah, you.

2011-02-15T10:21:00.000-08:00

Hey all :) I only have a few words for you today.
There's this site. And it makes me happy. And I wanna share.
So check it out :)

love! xox bex.
p.s. here's a few sweet sayings, I plucked off this same site...

"If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together... there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart... I'll always be with you."

-A.A. Milne

"It isn't the size of the gift that matters, but the size of the heart that gives it."

This makes me happy.

What is making you happy today?

Pick one thing, even if you're having a dumpy day. :)

Tell me about it...

I heart Seattle. I heart ice cream.

2011-02-11T09:44:00.000-08:00

my hair used to look like this...

and now it looks like this...

I've mentioned this a couple times...but now I'm opening the forum. Whaddya think? Which do you like better? I like it, but I want more fake red :] Just to brighten it up a tad, since it has faded a little since the dyeing-date. ha! Dye-ing date.

I will change subjects now! WOOT! Over last weekend I went to a little place called SEATTLE. You may have heard of it? I went to this Ahhh-mazing ice cream place called Molly Moon's(which took forEVer to find, since I'm not familiar with the Capitol Hill area)...

They were "hosting" a breakfast; either A.)waffle & ice cream(BRILLIANT), or B.)oatmeal and ice cream(BRILLIANT) in honor of International Eat Ice Cream For Breakfast Day(BRILLIANT).

I think I pretty much invented this, like.... 6,789,422,734,657 years ago, but HEY if they wanna act like it's their deal, and make me a fantastic waffle so hot it deforms my plastic fork, I'm ok with it.

(*Shirley Temple Smile!*)

So then, a SWARM of joggers comes in right AFTER we have ordered, and are waiting in these floor-height kiddie-chairs, for our food to magically appear. Drinking orange juice out of paper cups- you know, like 3rd grade snack-time. Point being... well, you can imagine.

I won't elaborate. It was all of a sudden sweaty up in there, but when our food arrived we were taken back into the anticipated-bliss-that-one-can-only-dream-of.

Exhibit #1...

End of Exhibit.

Hee hee! Where you toss your tester-spoon when you're done with it.

What are your plans for this weekend?

This is the site where I found out the International EICFB Day. Seattlest!

You should check it out :) If you live around here. Don't be a creeper.

;)
xoxo! the bex.

Two-es-Day!

2011-02-08T12:43:00.000-08:00

I'd like to start off by announcing that my 'google reader' is quite full, and I can actually hear it, long after I've closed the tab in my browser... it's like this:

"Hey YOU! Yeah, you with the FACE. Why do you subscribe to all these informational/great & colorful/hilarious blogs and then forget to READ them? And you complain about not having a book to fill your spare time... you should be ASHAMED."

And so I am ashamed. And so then I dig up old poems like this delight, to compensate(ha!). I am quite(shout-out to my friend, the word 'quite' that I keep using!) pleased with it, even as old as it is. And I wish so much that it wasn't so old.

But alas, I'll add that to the ever-growing wish-list I've recently began. :]
Ever get told off by your closed web-browsers? Yeah, me neither.... moving along folks! Here is your dosage of Poetism for the week. Enjoy it's brevity!! You'll thank me later!

In your absence since always
I've pictured you sleeping
so quiet and peaceful
a dreamer just dreaming.
Your eyelids will flutter
your hand moves to mine
I've stroked thru your hair
to help open your eyes.
If maybe someday really
I'd get that chance to cherish
your subconscious movements
in each day of marriage.

PS: It's sunny out!!!! Does this mean EARLY summer?!>!>!>>!>!!?!??!?!??!mvo;ijert5gn;jtr4gnKMSDNgfaergt

oh my gash, I'm so excited for my iphone.. everytime the FedEx truck drives by, I'm convinced it's time to commit myself to Apple, finally. But that day hasn't come yet ;) HA PRAXIS.
xoxo, THE BEX.

sigh.

2011-02-04T11:31:00.000-08:00

First things first. No really.....

#1.

IT'S OFFICIALLY FRIDAY. Can you feel the excitement?

THANK THE FARMIN'(new euphamisn alert!) GOODNESS INSIDE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF US.

AMIRITE.

Secondly.... you all know how anti-mac/apple I am...don'tcha? Well... push comes to shove when your phone royally STINKS(or has a huge blacked out area on the touch-screen), so when Verizon announced(alright, I'll admit this was way back in July 2010 when it was still unofficial) that they were bringing the iphone to their network... I got excited. I thought "AT LAST! MY CHANCE! I can pay good money for a phone that won't rip me off 3 months from now!"

Oh so the news is that I ordered one. And I'm proud to say that I actually have a 'REP' and ordered mine BEFORE Feb 3rd YA'LL! (Don't be jealous. We're all friends, here. I could hook you up, if you gave me some chocolate ice cream... with hot fudge.)

Don't lie, if you don't already have one, you want one.

credit
THIRDLY... I truthfully did dye my hair. Okay technically, Hoolia- from the Oregon/travel post- dyed it cause she's a professional and all. So here it is... I know you've been DYE-ING to see it(see what I did there?).

Terrible Pun #1, for this post.

Ok, I'm letting myself get silly, cause I like it.

aaaaaand FINALE. It's FRIDAY HOORAH.

For goodness sakes.. If you've had a fully-loaded-terror-of-a-week like myself, you are as glad as I that it's close to being over. Soak it up. Dance your booty off, and don't let Saturday & Sunday slip by too fast.

i mean it.
<3 xox bex...

I only can give you what I love today.

2011-02-01T16:38:00.000-08:00

CUTE! Things money cannot buy...
a site to remind us what little things make up the best parts of our day. :]

I think I have most of this list down... hopefully. :P Things everyone should know how to do!! I like it.

Check out this AH-MAZE-ING collection of people's "before & after" projects. The host of this website always has a funny addition to read, and my last sharing-is-caring moment of today....

1,000 Awesome Things. I'm pretty sure I've linked you to this before, but it's always got a freshly-posted-awesome-thing to let you secretly admit that you agree with!! :)

LOVE!
xox bex...

p.s. I dyed my hair!

Keep your eyes to the sky, babydoll.

2011-01-28T15:26:00.000-08:00

Do you ever feel like you've forgotten yourself?
Do you occasionally forget things that matter to you? You forget your way, your routines, and your favorite FOOD?? Okay, maybe not that last one.

'Cause maybe you've been so focused on one thing- even unknowingly- that everything else just blurred into the background. Now you gotta clean all that crap off the walls. I feel like I forgot my motivation.

I have things to do. It's not keeping busy that will be a problem, it's just a cloud hanging over me for a while. I just will have a hard time enjoying myself, even when I smile.

I know what I'm capable of, and I'm not fulfilling that right now.

I love my friends so much, even tho at times I take for granted at the moment, the dedication they show in return. I'm not giving up being the person that I am, I deserve a lot, just like you do. I'm just waiting for it to grow back to me, now.

right now:

these colors are nice. my smile is not happy.

churlish(1), reserved/demure(2), cynical(3)

AKA... no one's having fun.

I need to be here:

where I was promising.

goofy(1), content(2), smitten(3)

AKA Myself...

Have yourselves a fantastic little weekend, troops. Keep truckin' thru the hard stuff, and keep coming back :) things will begin to glow again.

"keep your eyes to the sky, babydoll"

-probably the best piece of advice I've heard in a while-

xox bex...<3

Dove says...

2011-01-25T10:46:00.000-08:00

Duh!

This is what I've been sayin' all along :)

xox bex.

breathe some nostalgia with me, people...

2011-01-21T11:30:00.000-08:00

Countless

seconds and days till I see you next.

what is this feeling?

and will I regret it?

endless

hours I could spend right now

just to watch your mouth.

I'm beginning to learn...

nervous?

not anymore, you just opened a whole new world to me.

it's my duty to repay you now.

pure as the water

I overlook at this moment,

your arms around my waist are secure.

I long for nothing else.

no food can sustain a starving heart.
no water can quench how I miss you.

too simple to sequence,

I even saw it coming,

but denied that truth to my heart's tremble.

and so now you hold me...

really nothing I've ever desired.

except I can't get it off my weary mind, now-

punishment, I guess

for not holding you tighter.

Dudes, I created this! YAY ME!

IT'S FRIDAY, ZOM-GOODNESS!!!
Help, HGTV is addicting! I can't help but want to write a letter to "Dear Genevieve" and tell her about my terrible non-existent living room that needs remodeled.

Have a good weekend folks, from me to you... sincerely,
THE bex :) xoxo!!

Power Points

2011-01-18T09:33:00.000-08:00

At the root of virtually all spiritual practice is the notion of forgiveness. Think about every single person who has ever harmed you, cheated you, defrauded you, or said unkind things about you. Your experience of them is nothing more than a thought that you carry around with you. These thoughts of resentment, anger & hatred represent slow, debilitating energies that will dis-empower you. If you could release them, you would know more peace.
-Wayne Dyer

The rung of a ladder was never meant to rest upon, but only to hold a man's foot long enough to enable him to put the other somewhat higher.
-Thomas Henry Huxley

You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do.
-Eleanor Roosevelt

Do not regret growing older. It is a privilege denied to many.
-Author Unknown

Have compassion for everyone you meet, even when they
don't want it. What seems conceit, bad manners, or
cynicism is always a sign of things no ears have heard, no eyes have seen.
You do not know what wars are going on down there where the spirit meets the bone.
-Miller William

Have a good week lovelies... :) Here is another great thing I read last week. Enjoy, and keep that smile bright.
~28 Dignified Ways to Impress Everyone Around You~
xoxo, bex.

Phun Phacts Phor Phriday!

2011-01-14T09:09:00.000-08:00

I just randomly decided to look up types of phobias.
And guess what? There are some phunky ones out there.

Check my findings...
Allodoxaphobia- Fear of opinions. (REALLY.)
Alektorophobia- Fear of chickens.
Arachibutyrophobia- Fear of peanut butter sticking to the roof of the mouth. (Yeah, you read that right.)
Phobophobia- Fear of phobias (heehee)
Pteronophobia- Fear of being tickled by feathers (pfff)

Don't judge me.. but I don't think this one is so wrong...

Automatonophobia- Fear of ventriloquist's dummies, animatronic creatures,

wax statues - anything that falsely represents a sentient being.

THIS IS WRONG: Bibliophobia- Fear of books

THIS IS RIGHT: Cacophobia- Fear of ugliness

Consecotaleophobia- Fear of chopsticks ... Say Whaaa?
Coulrophobia- Fear of clowns ... I FEAR that I have this. Ok I don't fear it. I just have it.
Odynophobia or Odynephobia- Fear of pain .... Don't judge :}
Decidophobia- Fear of making decisions ... Gawl-leeeeeee, I know a few people with this(Grrr...)

GET THIS....It's real YO! I checked...
Hippopotomonstrosesquippedaliophobia - Fear of long words... I'm not even kidding.

Now this hurts my heart, and is just. plain. blasphemy....Metrophobia- Fear or hatred of Poetry.
Philophobia- Fear of falling in love or being in love .... oh no! Sad!
Scriptophobia- Fear of writing in public.... uhh, okay.

Sophophobia- Fear of learning.... What a terrible thing to be informed that you have! ;)

hahaha... oh I guess that's not so funny... but this is: Walloonphobia- Fear of the Walloons.

BTW, Walloons are French-speaking people who live in Belgium.

Yeah I'm lost, too.

Have an entertaining weekend!!

<3 bex

PS. The fear of redheads is real too... Gingerphobia.

-_-

Dear Anonymous Commenters,

2011-01-11T13:01:00.000-08:00

I love you. I really do.

I love the witty things you say, the way you joke on my posts because you(usually) know me personally, and you assume I'll know who you are.

But sometimes... I don't know who you are.
And sometimes I'd REALLY LIKE to know who you are, so I can be all...
"Hey friend! I'm so glad we're hanging out IRL(in-real-life) 'cause your comment on my blog the other day, totally made me 'LOL,' and I'd like to thank you in person for taking the time to read it. 'Cause y'know I've been at this for a year now, and I REALLY can't thank my readers enough, so I'd love to start local and thank you again! In your face!"

With that being said... :) You should let me know, with a codeword, your real first name, or whatever you'd like to go by, to give me a little hint who ya are. Unless you're feeling creeper-ish(Nichelle).. and absolutely WANT to remain anonymous- then, I will understand.

Thanks for the patience with NO-POSTING last Friday, friends! You won't be sorry if you come back this Friday!! See you then!! :)

xox Bex.

Take it away, friends!

2011-01-04T12:18:00.000-08:00


"Wants and needs are wanton things,
For often what we want
Is confused for what are needs.
And if we're wont to want
Our wants and not our needs,
Our needs will all be lacking
And our wants will turn to greed."

One of my bestest friends wrote that, when we were probably in 8th grade?

I've always loved it :}

Hey guess what! This weekend(7th) is the wedding I'm IN, so you won't be hearing from me

Friday, unless something really dramatic happens & you can check the

twitter box, on the right >

OR just follow me on twitter[@zomgitsfriday]

Friday is fast approaching! <3

xoxo bex.

ps. hang in there, tootsie.

Oregon. Orrrr-eh-gawn. Ore-gone?

2010-12-31T08:51:00.000-08:00

I once crossed the border into a distant land.
I once saw things I've never seen before... nor may see again.
And I also tried on items of clothing... I will never try on again.

Can you imagine me:
-sleep deprived
-stuffed with food(specifically Gingerbread Pancake Puppies from Denny's)(<--I recommend)
-just drove straight 3.5 hours- starting at 11:30pm from a previously full 8 hour day at work...?

Now imagine my mood(HA! Gotcha. You thought I was talking about that first, huh?)!! Don't worry, lots of coffee was involved.

NOW IMAGINE... ok just kidding... Why, you ask? BLACK FRIDAY SALES, of course! (yes I realize I'm just NOW getting around to telling you about it.)
Here's the car group...

We've got Jules. Fashionista; in search of boots at le Macy's.

Also wielding a SERIOUS coupon for Express.

GOOD NEWS! She found boots! TWO pair to be exact! AND at the low price of $60(for both!!!)

Then we have Kid. He's the bodyguard(unpaid, unless you consider my amazing homemade jokes a form of reimbursement), for about 12 hours of work- including, but not limited to:

-holding doors open & following the ladies lead

-holding most bags in addition to the doors, AND last & most important...

-keeping me awake on the drive home(he slept, btw!).

Did I mention he was wonderful company as well??

It's true. Look how good of a sport he was:

A true champ to endure a long-haul-of-estrogen-powered-shopping-extravaganza.
PHEW! I should have acquired this hat.

Anyway. Lastly, & not leastly, we have Abby.

Quiet, faithfully obedient to my unspoken "come'ere's!" and ADORABLE.

Kid had a hard time fighting off all the paparazzi!

See proof:

Look at that hammin' cheeser :) Precious.
Umm... Are you jealous? Sit down, hooligan. She's out of your league.
She even supported me, when I was sure I was hearing voices. What a friend!

AND when they cheered me on to model the worst jewelry of 2010...

...She even helped me load it all on. Oh man, Abby's a trooper :)

Oh? Tired of my story-telling, are you?
You just wanna see pictures and get it over with, do you?
HMMPH!
More hats were seen, check this character...

No, that's not your imagination, this hat really has a tail. ^

Besides my normal-scary picture-capades....

...looks like all you lovely dovefaces made it back here with most of your pieces in-tact to read my latest post. So I am glad to wish you all a WARM week(it's dumping giant fluffy snowflakes here within the last hour) and keep putting CLEAN socks into the dryer to warm those toes. Or skip to the end of last Friday's post, for a fresh recommendation from my friend, to get yourself some toe socks(I dont recommend, if you have wide-tootsies.)

*waves*

TOODLES!!! Drive with care this weekend!!!!!

xoxo bex

Nameless Poetism: Whose is this?!

2010-12-28T09:32:00.000-08:00

I can't remember where I found this, so if anyone has seen it before, let me know! I want to give credit, where credit is due! :) Thanks...

Postcard From a Lost Artist

She will be known as the Michelangelo
of the second graders, of the bittersweet
chocolate or lover, both too hard for her
mouth. The quest is never to carry

cobwebs, never to be the girl
with the untidy corners, behind her
ears--spiders, but what she sees
are the unfinished paintings

on the right side of her brain,
this is how she carries yesterdays,
how she moves forward while still remembering
the scrapbook of wildflowers. The orchestra

is more than a map of Maine, more than
the red-winged blackbirds(one of the few birds
she can tell by ear). But what can she paint
today? She will be the Michelangelo

of the madronas, the human
god who touched the clouds by finding a field
tall enough. The sky,
the color of stillness. The forest,

someone's lost childhood
with all those trees for climbing.

Jalepeno Heat, I mean heart!

2010-12-24T00:26:00.000-08:00

Look everyone!My Food loves me!

Isn't that sweet? It's a heart for cryin' out loud!! I LOVE jalepeno's.

Yum.

I'm reading a book recommended by my friend Nicho, over here. Yes! He not only is a music connoisseur, but also WELL READ, and recommended to me The Shadow of the Wind by Carlos Ruiz Zafon. So far, it's so wonderful. I mean, here's how wonderful it is:

1.) I ALWAYS read the very last page of any book I read- by the

time I'm done with the 2nd chapter...Well, I'm on the 4th, and I haven't hit the last page up yet.

2.) The poetic prose is so heavy, I have to read the scenic description of any given room(usually only about 2 sentences long) TWICE, to grasp everything. And it's not even a flood-like swampy-ICK of too many words just hanging out where they don't belong(cough-this page is a good example of that-COUGH). THEY ALL BELONG. It's just not what I'm used to reading. And it's wonderful.

This is you right now... so overwhelmed with excitement, you just fell asleep, kittenface.

Randomness #2...

I am experimenting this coming week:

I am not wearing foundation powder(gasp! watch out!) on my face for 7 days, maybe longer, to see if my skin clears up a little. It's pretty discouraging when you're still getting teenage acne at 23. Oh AND I take very particular care of my skin, so it's kinda infuriating. Kinda...

Randomness #3...(last one, I promise)

I've been keeping a list of things, well thoughts.

Thoughts that I want to hold onto for more than the 2.3 seconds

that my brain gives them to pop in and out of my thinking-waves. Here are a few:

-Need to think more before I speak.

-I think it's funny that I always forget what I label computer files, at work. Not efficient of me, but humorous every time.

-Started to read "Shadow of the Wind" but had to return it for 3 weeks, because I procrastinated to renew it, before the due date rolled around. OOPS- another thing I found slightly funny.

- "Being a vegetarian doesn't require me to exercise, to maintain my weight." And I LOVE that. For now- while the sun is still hibernating. Talk to me again about that in a couple months.

Tell me your weekend plans, sugar-faces!

I miss you! :(

BE SAFE OUT THERE!!!

<3 <3 <3 xoxo bex

PS! This is for Paul:

Manliness, and warmth for each individual toe. You're welcome, interwebz.

[LAWLZ]. I told him I approved, for now. Since each toe DOES deserve it's individual warmth.

A Certain Brand of Sad

2010-12-21T19:34:00.000-08:00

I highly enjoyed this article. Sarah Wilson is a very inspiring writer, who... a LOT of my bloggy-web-friends read. Not that they realize even, they are my "friends"... Take that how you will. lol..

>>Brand of Sad<<

She addresses the point that 'sad' really is different than 'depressed.' Sometimes you've been in one category for so long, tho that you begin to wonder if it's not normal. I know I have, and I've shared that with many of you. Thank you readers, for coming back :) You're one of a kind to put up with my crazy ranting, and my calm-spirited articles, alike... haha.

<3 May sweet things happen to you today :)

2010-12-17T10:06:00.000-08:00

Today, folks.... is Friday. And I have a special friend of mine to share with you.

His name is Nicho(nee-cho) Solano & he recently began blogging about music.
Specifically, The Songs That Saved Your Life. I know no one else who has a larger internal(that being his own brain) database of music. Nicho also has a knack for humorous writing, even though English is his second language; and vast variety of tastes to suit just about everyone who stumbles upon his page. I encourage you all to check it out, he's a very talented individual!! Go! Shoo!! Subscribe!! He's the newest 'thing'!! Have fun :]

And now here's a bit of Friday love, for you to spread around your world.
*sprinkle, sprinkle*

One day you'll be grey & wrinkled
and I'll still see you, my love...

Your smile will be older and
your grip won't be as tight.

One day you might stumble short,
and need to hold my hand.

To go, you'll need a little shove,
but your eyes will be as bright...
and besides you I'll still stand.

You know what I always say to you before the weekend, right?

Be safe, because I love you!

Oh guess what- I french braided my hair today x} *swoon*

And come back Tuesday for a treat :]

<3bexxxxx

BLOG SWAP UPDATE!

2010-12-15T09:35:00.000-08:00

(Sorry about the delay for Tuesday's post! It's been one helluva week! Bare with me!!)
Hi Tuesday Kids :)

Yesterday while I was STILL having Jeep issues, my blog-swap package came!

Can you say EXCITEMENT?!

FedEx! Came! To! My! House!

Which means, in a sense, that my new friend Amanda from the Casa Brasi Blog was sending a little piece of
her character to spread around me :}

That she did! Meet Amanda, friends. Walk your finger clicking over to her site ^ and take in the beautiful design work she does! Some of the changes she can make to one single room, blow me away!

Now, this challenged me.
Truly, a secure seal, when pressed firmly.
Who knew?

Inside the soft tissue paper(and ADORABLE striped knit-string)
were goodies I've been needing!!

A perfect-sized picture frame, in a brushed gold that matches
my room decor to-the-perfection ;)

My room consists of light blues, dark blues, dark brown,
white & gold tones as compliments.

This will be perfect on my dresser- which is dark brown.
THEN there are the gloves. Oh. Em. Gee.

The COLORS! The thickness!! Not your average knitted gloves! They are heavy :D

I LOVE.

And THREE pairs of these babies! *swoon*

Thank you Amanda, thank you sooooooooooooo much.

And thank you also to the sponsors & terrific coordinators of this
blogger-connection opportunity:

much love, illy & Sandy a la mode. (<-- check them out!!)

I couldn't have been given a better swap partner!

But wait- there's MORE :} Ohhhhh YEEEAAAHHHH!
This woman knows the secret to my heart!!
Yes, I am talking about coffee.

THAT'S A GIFT CARD PEOPLE!!!!!!! Did she hit the nail on the head, or what?

I'm telling ya, Amanda has either been reading my blog thoroughly... or talking

to someone who knows me personally. Her next delight, came in the form of (gasp!) PAPER.

OKAY who told her that Office Depot is my favorite place to shop?

The high walls of paper just whisper sweet things to me as I walk thru the

automatic doors. The aisle of Sharpies and highlighters and pens put the technicolor

rainbows into my life. And lastly, when I breach the notebook threshold, chorus after

chorus of heavenly voices sing praises to the trees for providing such a beautiful creature!

And of course my Almighty God provided the trees :)

But I don't think Office Depot is aware of that.

STATIONARY (BLANK-INSIDE) GREETING CARDS

WITH MY NAME ON THEM!?!!

gasp.

I'm floored.

Look at the adorable PEN, too. I didn't realize it was a pen until I was

playing with the eraser, about to try it out, and all of a sudden a pen tip popped outta nowhere!!

*HUGE SMILE*

I can't WAIT to use these! Now all I need is a special occasion... hmmm.
So now that I've shared my lovely gifts with you, what's on your list of things to do this week? You should definitely read up on Amanda's Interior Design Ideas and completed works.
She's fantastic. And it's practical as well! I love seeing her newest updates.
Keep looking for Friday, folks! It'll be here in no time :)
Love you, muffins.
xox bexxxxxxx

Guest Post!

2010-12-10T09:49:00.000-08:00

Guess what "Guest Posts" mean for ME, readers???!

It means I get to slack off for one day :) YAY PROCRASTINATION(I don't recommend this)!!

Every now and then I get a precious(an immensity I can't describe to you!) little something from my bloggy friends, to show their appreciation for my time spent to write to you all, twice weekly... So here is a treat I kindly share with you, that I received from an anonymous ardent reader.

Oh the joy of having friends. Truly something I cherish, ya'lls.

(By the way, if I ever use "Ya'lls" in the real-life interaction between you and I, feel free to derail my self-confidence, but for blog's sake... let's roll with it.)

"So close, but yet so far

In my thoughts you find a place.

Happy and delighted the enchantment is

Slow and steady wins the race.

A jump, a leap; embrace a reach for warmth

In the dead of space.

And energenic sprint for ye of little faith.

On one road less traveled, one less mistake to have been made.

Everlasting is the impression of good intentions-

If good will is intended for the greater good,

the greater love having the best affection.

Ahhhh...in my love of all things lyrical and poetic...

this sounds like the ocean's soft roar, to my ears.

GUESS WHAT EVERYONE?!!! My gift for Cold Hands, Warm Hearts was well-received in North Carolina!! :) Amanda, my blog-swap partner, posted about our gift swap and the things I sent her. Now I'm going to lead you thru pathways of fragrant lilies and sparkle-glittery unicorn herds, as you read her blog.

BAM! HERE IT IS!

This weekend shall be fun.

I will be fixing(errr my handy dad will be...don't hate!) my jeep's radiator.

Yeah... Joy... Much of it.

I'm sure.

Stay safe out there, and give your cars lots of love and attention

so they don't break down and die. Apparently Tawny(Jeeper!) didn't feel

enough love with all that regular maintenance and money-well-spent to make sure her

insides were vacuumed and sparkling. Yeah, whatever Tawny. Two can play this game.

xOxO bex :)

2010-12-07T09:21:00.000-08:00

GOOD MORNING!!

I've walked to the Alaskan tundra and back!

Okay, so it was to Starbucks. Across the street. But this cozy hood served it's purpose.

I am currently creating an AdWords campaign for another company. If you know anyone who needs AdWords help for their small business, I'd love to assist! Throw my name around.

email contact: zomgitsfriday[at]gmail[dot]com

In other news....
It's Tuesday! And Monday was terrible, AMIRIGHT!?
This weekend I ventured out of my usual hermit-cave and tried something new...
Dancing.
In. Front.
Of. People.
Yeah. I went there. And it wasn't sooooo bad(but still scary, I had to throw myself).
Altho, since I was playing my friend Hoolia's 'Kinect' the game called Dance Central, I got pretty frustrated when it wouldn't recognize that I was doing the dance correctly, so it wouldn't give me the points. Oh well. Maybe it's just proving me right that I am TERRIBLE at dancing ;)
That would be just fine by me. But in other- OTHER news...
This also happened at her house:

Don't ask why :) They're just fake leaves.
BECAUSE! Ok? Because.

Anddddddd...this may have happened too... but I'm still not sure.

Don't judge me.
You're jealous cause your lips are non-existent like mine.
:]
Have a happy Tuesday, people. Try not to let the week get to you...
...Cause it's pretty rough out there.
Love peace & tiny salsa-red lips! (Salsa Red by Mary Kay)

<3 xoxo Bex.

I Am... The Out Of Towner

2010-12-03T09:59:00.000-08:00

The weekend before last I went to Port Angeles, to visit a friend who is gettin' hitched in January. Of whose wedding, I just so happened to be included! Can you say P-A-R-T-Y?

Anywho... I drove out(on the windiest day of the year, I'm sure) to Ediz Hook, which is a large jette of non-connecting beach rock(& a 2-lane stretch of pavement) between this U. S. of A. and Good Ol' Canad-ia. The Coast Guard actually uses the end portion of the jette, which means you can only drive out til that point- it's STILL a ton of drive distance- maybe 2 miles!

So, it's FREEZING. And it's WINDY. And I'm only prepared with a sweatshirt/hood, and

a single pair of thin knitted gloves that you buy in a 3-pack at the dollar store. OH and trying to operate a slim-lined Nikon, with TINY buttons; therefore not wearing the gloves during blasts of this glacial tempest.

I found this beauty just waiting for it's close-up...

[sidenote: Can I please RANT about how much I LOVE the colors in this shot?! AND NO FILTER.]

Before I headed out tho, I thoroughly prepared for this(ha! Obviously.) and bought the BEST ginger bread cookie I've ever had in my life.

HUGE: bigger than my entire hand- which granted is small- but that's big for a cookie ;)

The cookie purchase was done at "The Buzz" my F.A.V.O.R.I.T.E. coffee place in the known-world-that-I've-explored-so-far! I hope to post more pictures soon of my Jette-Adventure, but this is all you get for now ;)

I braved the cold.

For about 10 minutes at a time.

IN THE BILLOWING GUSTS OF ARCTIC BREEZE THAT'S ABOUT ALL

MY LITTLE FRIGID FINGERS COULD HANDLE!!!

And it made my eyes cry!

I literally bent over to flip my hood back on, and I SWEAR 3 big teardrops fell STRAIGHT outta my eyes, without blinking at all. It was a bit....like Alaska...if I had ever been to Alaska-OK-MOVING-ONWARD!

Oh! Right. WHY I went to P. A. in the first place!

To buy a customized dress; to be dyed the color of my friends wedding.

Said color is... Burnt Orange. Terracotta to be exact!

Here's the dress ON:

[Yeah, I totally have that body, so it fits exactly like this... uhhh.. what? I heard something, over there...]

Here's the dress on the hanger:

Good thing you saw it ON, first right?

Ha! I know it looks pathetic just hanging there.

And so now it's being dyed "Terracotta." We shall see. I'm SUPER excited to see how it turns out!

Dancing.

Now that's something I'm actually scared of.

Friends say I will master the dance floor, and I'm fully preparing to

~~humiliate myself~~ rock out to the following songs:

The Underdog- Spoon

Poison- Bell Biv Divoe

(YESSSSSSSSSSS! Watch out now!)

Anything else you suggest, that I request??

ANSWERS NOW... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannnd GO!

Have a great weekend kitties!

You better be safe, and stay alive to be in Reading Attendance next

Tuesday Treat Day, for a SPECIAL GUEST POST!!!

;] <3 Bex.

thankful for life....thankful for you.

2010-11-30T10:17:00.000-08:00

Good Morning Sunshine Kids,
It's time to peer into the lives of others, and see what's happening on blogs around the world... Here is an article I found most incredible. Sharing is caring! : ) Here's the link to the actual website, and the article is copy & pasted below. Enjoy!

http://www.yikesmachine.com/2010/10/thankfulness-an-unexpected-group-activity/.

Near the end of August I came across a blog called Shine Little Light written by Sophie from Sydney, Australia. Every Saturday, Sophie publishes the current week’s edition of her ongoing series, Things to Be Thankful For.

I consider myself a generally thankful person. I try to acknowledge the good stuff in my life and not take the extraordinarily lucky fates that allow me to live, work, learn, and access services for granted. That said, reading her weekly posts I started thinking about how an active habit of thankfulness could influence a person’s daily life. My presumption was that the intentional development of gratitude would likely be of potentially immense personal value. I imaged that stress levels would recede, relationships would strengthen, tempers would cool, and I may be able to better live more fully in the beauty and joy of life.

I decided to try and work on developing thankfulness into my daily routine.
I grabbed an empty navy blue notebook that I had on hand and started recording my thoughts whenever I felt appreciative. Almost immediately thereafter, some really crappy days came rumbling through and with those challenges I found that yes, my suspicions were correct. With a daily gratitude routine I found the stresses of life were somehow easier to deal with, I was more calm and reasonable, and I managed to retain a semblance of perspective and empathy in places where in the past, tempers flared.
I fully attribute this softening to my attentive focus on appreciating the good, even when life occasionally feels about as solid as scrambled eggs.

Then, on the 12th of September, less than two weeks after I started this process, I lost my little book.

At first I freaked out over someone finding and reading the personal details of my life, possibly even knowing it was mine and thinking less of me. Because of the easy to carry size of the notebook, I had taken to carrying it around in my bag or back pocket and so I could note my thanks on the go. In it, I had made admissions of my own less-than-stellar moments (attached to appreciation of my husband’s patience), and there were plenty of identifying details that would easily link it back to me.
On the day it went missing, I had run a number of errands in the morning, went to work, came home, and then back out to drinks with The Mister and some friends. All of these events took place in a six-block radius, so I knew I it was nearby, but where?

After a couple of days of going without, I started to really miss my thankfulness practice and started anew with a larger less-likely-to-be-lost blank book. After a few weeks I had all but forgot about the missing book containing those first two weeks gratitude.

Last week, the lost book came back to me.

It turns out, I left it at work.
I work in a place where different people use different workstations daily and it’s normal to rotate quite a bit. I left it in the desk I had been working at, and last week when I was assigned to that space again, I was cleaning up and a familiar blue corner peeked out from the clutter.
The dread and panic I felt when I initially lost it rose back into my chest as I pulled it out of the pile and saw that the paper cover was faded from handling, the pages rumpled from touch. It had clearly been read.

I steeled myself while I opened it to re-read my admissions, to see just what secrets I had inadvertently shared that many of coworkers obviously now knew.
My anxiety turned to surprise when I turned a page to the 12th of September and could see through the paper that the writing continued. I turned the page again and saw this:

It reads as follows:

13 September 2010
1. I am grateful for the words of a stranger who has reminded me to be grateful.
2. I am grateful that I am brave enough to write in someone else’s book, or is the word cheeky?
3. I am grateful for the generosity of my friends, of their hearts, their time, their wallets, their attention.
4. I am grateful for pens and paper.
5. I am grateful that I am tired, hungover and cranky by choice
6. I am grateful for music, for it’s ability for rescue and repair me.
7. I am grateful for interactions with strangers, whether they are fleeting or whether they become friendships.
8. I am grateful for the dictionary on my iPhone that just taught me what jeer means – to grin and laugh coarsely or mockingly.
9. I am grateful for this job where I can take time to think and write.

You guys, I cried.

The book was full. Written to the last page in countless different hands.

Nobody mocked it. Nobody commented on other people’s thanks except to give messages of support on issues that others were struggling with. The writers also made admissions of their own imperfections and thanked me for sharing mine although I had clearly not intended to. Page after page I read the personal hopes and heartfelt appreciations for all the little things of monumental importance in their lives.

Astonishingly, a gratitude that was repeated again in again in myriad hands and pens was the appreciation of the book itself. That it reminded them to be grateful, that it showed them they weren’t alone in both the blues and the pinks of life, that it remained there waiting to be read containing new thanks since they last wrote in it.

So, Happy 'Tuesday Treat' to you. If you are having a crappy day, try and make someone else's day better, it will most definitely raise your spirits. Oh and if you're reading this, be thankful that you CAN read.

Hope you all are grateful for something simple and overly taken for granted!!

Love it! Love you, faithful readers. Behave yourselves ;)
<3 bex....